07-09-2019, 08:54 AM
Got hit with a migraine yesterday. Slept near 15 hours and then took the day off today because I'm not 100% better. Learned about the postdrome stage of migraines which is essentially the pain being gone but the complete lack of cognitive functioning. Along with it can come anxiety and depression which I'm feeling a ton of today. I was supposed to go back to ltu yesterday, but couldn't handle it with the pounding headache. Debating if I should listen tonight or not, I don't want to overdo it and trigger another migraine.
It's been really difficult listening to LTU as the sense of internal fear rises. A lot of tension and conflicting interests. When I went into work yesterday I got this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I didn't want to be there. I don't know if it was me being worn out or LTU really pushing me to get out of there. But I find it difficult to remain focused.
Aside from that I've been practicing gratitude. I notice it definitely makes me feel good. The key for me is getting into a calm mental state first. What I've been doing is just visualizing before I drift off to sleep at night. Sometimes I hit these moments where my visualization is more real and I'm in it. But as soon as that realness hits it's almost like a shock or disruption and I'm pulled back. Possibly a fearful part of me that activates.
It's been really difficult listening to LTU as the sense of internal fear rises. A lot of tension and conflicting interests. When I went into work yesterday I got this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach that I didn't want to be there. I don't know if it was me being worn out or LTU really pushing me to get out of there. But I find it difficult to remain focused.
Aside from that I've been practicing gratitude. I notice it definitely makes me feel good. The key for me is getting into a calm mental state first. What I've been doing is just visualizing before I drift off to sleep at night. Sometimes I hit these moments where my visualization is more real and I'm in it. But as soon as that realness hits it's almost like a shock or disruption and I'm pulled back. Possibly a fearful part of me that activates.
INFP
