06-30-2019, 08:05 AM
Definitely learning more and more what I'm doing wrong that's stalling progress. Fear is the biggest issue. I realized today when I feel fear I try to go inside myself and remove it. But what's really going on is I'm just ruminating in it, focusing on it, and magnifying it. If I were to let go of fear it makes sense that doing so in the quickest way possible would mean I take direct action on the things being held back by fear. So it doesn't make any sense to meditate on the feeling of fear itself in hopes that it goes away. When I had this realization I felt a shift in my mindset, a pull towards positivity and power. However, my body responded by becoming tense almost as if trying to pull me back to status quo. When this happened in the past I fell into the trap of thinking I needed to spend more time removing the fear before I could move forward. I think with the amount of time I've used these subs it has become clearer to me that sometimes the only way to transcend the problems is to move forward regardless, even if it doesn't feel like I can or that I think I need to do some more internal work before moving forward.
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