LTU: Moving forward

[mat422]

Thanks Shannon. To be honest I've been having a hard time digging deeper to find out where these fears come from. I'll sit down and really try to figure it out then get tired or lose my train of thought. Or sometimes I'll get an answer that's not really the right answer, it's sort of a distraction by a part of me to throw me off the trail so to speak. To get me away from the real core issue. Also sometimes when I try to really investigate this fear I get this build up of anger. And then the other one is I don't make time to investigate these things. I'll keep myself busy so I don't have the opportunity. I say this not to make excuses, but whatever is tucked underneath there really does not want to be unearthed. So in theory the idea of digging deeper is straightforward, but all the derailment from my subconscious makes it very difficult to follow through.

Do you mind expanding on this?

And then, dare to BE GRATEFUL for already having what you genuinely want at the conscious level.  Gratitude is an amazingly powerful thing.

I have not tried tying security to my visualizations but I will definitely try that. It's a good point, seeing as how even when I was visualizing a lot the feeling that consumed me was usually "I don't know if I can do this/this is not safe". This also made me realize I've never really felt "secure" in my life at any point. So cultivating that feeling is probably going to be a little foreign to me.

I'm going to try harder to focus on what I want and stop letting the fear get in the way of that. I will also be more mindful of my achievements and be grateful for them. Thanks again for the help.