LTU: Moving forward

[Shannon]

Yes you're correct Shannon, I don't get the "becoming" part. Everything you've written here confirms my own thoughts on this.

I think my biggest issue with LOA is I have trouble making the jump. But even the smallest jumps seem impossible to me. That's my biggest issue. I've read tons of books on this stuff and it's like most people just choose and it happens. I have trouble "becoming" because I can't even wrap my head around the possibility of it. Even something like having a job that pays well and I'm good at, something so minor seems hard to even imagine. I try to keep things small and believable, but it's such a small pool to draw from.

What is "believable" and what is "not believable" are limits you choose.  Before I did the experiments that showed me what I used to create 5G, I was adamantly convinced that "that's not possible".  Yet not only did it turn out to be possible, it wasn't even the end of the road for what was possible - which was my next artificially limiting belief.

The fact is, what "is believable" and what "is possible" are limited ONLY by what you decide to limit them with. 

So I guess my question is, how do you bridge that gap? I feel like I'm starting so low. Even with all the subs I've run, there's a persistent part of me that holds onto a limited perspective of what's possible. I mainly want to leverage the power of LOA to build a life I can be happy with. But even with all the changes I've made and how far I've come, it feels like I barely moved with regards to what I really want in my life.

Bridging the gap comes from recognizing that there is a gap to bridge, which you have done.  Then you have to understand the root cause.  You know it's fear, but fear of what?  And why do you have that fear?  That is the killer for most people.  Why have you built a prison cell around yourself, which you refuse to exit or simply just stop creating, since you are the one who creates it every day anew?  What is it that you feel safer against while sitting in that self imposed prison?  

Then, be patient with yourself and your progress.  Remember, it wasn't too long ago that no matter what we tried, you weren't making progress!  So progress, however slow, is something to BE GRATEFUL for.

And then, dare to BE GRATEFUL for already having what you genuinely want at the conscious level.  Gratitude is an amazingly powerful thing.

I feel like it is mostly fear. But it's very frustrating feeling stuck and that fear getting worse and worse. To the point where I almost freeze where I am and if I have a small sliver of some kind of security I cling onto it even if it won't give me the happiness I desire.

I'd wager it's all fear.  But the fear isn't getting worse and worse; it's losing ground.  That's why it seems to be getting worse: because you keep inching forward to achieving the success you consciously want and need.  But it's an illusion, just like the illusion smokers are belabored by that cigarettes relieve their nicotine cravings, when in fact they actually create and re-set them, guaranteeing that they will continue.

Have you tried visualizing yourself having all of what you consciously want, including unlimited security in having that?  See what happens when you associate security with having what you want in your visualizations.

Fear is a liar.  I screams "wolf" long and loud when the "wolf" is really just a shadow on the wall - of a small ant.