06-19-2019, 11:33 AM
3rd day back on it. Although my physical health has deteriorated (got a really achy neck, light headache literally all day, glands swollen, sore throat - which sucks as a call center salesman), my mood has improved from the past couple of days.
As anticipated with last night's comments here, something new is building inside of me; new foundations on the wreckage of whichever former paradigm I had which has recently been demolished.
My salesmanship is back, having finished the day top of the team. I exchanged some flirty email banter with one girl. One of the others previously mentioned who had seemed really indifferent and even off with me the past couple weeks was quite keen to talk once I bumped into her outside work at the end of the day and fully investing in the short interaction. I cut it off fairly short though and drove home to type this report.
It seems interesting to me that these undesirable physical symptoms have manifested now when I previously mentioned in my last few posts I felt like some drastic change was occurring and that I think I've hit my first real attempt at subconscious resistance, and I do believe this its last attempt at thwarting my commands to change.
Bring it on!
As anticipated with last night's comments here, something new is building inside of me; new foundations on the wreckage of whichever former paradigm I had which has recently been demolished.
My salesmanship is back, having finished the day top of the team. I exchanged some flirty email banter with one girl. One of the others previously mentioned who had seemed really indifferent and even off with me the past couple weeks was quite keen to talk once I bumped into her outside work at the end of the day and fully investing in the short interaction. I cut it off fairly short though and drove home to type this report.
It seems interesting to me that these undesirable physical symptoms have manifested now when I previously mentioned in my last few posts I felt like some drastic change was occurring and that I think I've hit my first real attempt at subconscious resistance, and I do believe this its last attempt at thwarting my commands to change.
Bring it on!
