E3 - CM

[THolt]

Day 42 of E3.

Short update time!

-For the last 8 days, have had an extremely serious medical situation with a parent. Life threatening. Looks like things will be okay soon, I look forward to being able to pick them up and take them home this week. Maybe a couple more days if all goes well. It's been exhausting aiding them, round the clock which is necessary.

-Have obviously set aside business concerns mostly while dealing with this. However, I've noticed a strange fear I had over time to do with business, has been lifted and I've been allowed to take action on something I hesitated on for a long time. That was good! And long overdue, really. Looking forward to taking things to the next level with that, finally.

-Have almost no interest in social media, chasing women in general etc. I'm glad for that continuing on this program. Focusing on myself, my family, my business concerns, is necessary. And naturally the focus of this script won't have you "chasing skirts" anyway. I don't think they've been a good investment of my time, energy and money so far anyway. Maybe someday they can bring some value, but it's been readily apparent that hasn't been the case so far in my life, and they've just been a time/money/energy sink with no benefit in return to me, as written about before.

-Periodic dreams that can be related to the script occurring that I recall. Fear-related stuff etc., overcoming things I perceive to be scary in the beginning, or them morphing into something that isn't nearly as dire or serious etc. Not too much dreaming to do with girls yet, but a couple have occurred so on some level it seems to be getting to that stuff.

-Sleep is still difficult to reliably get on this sub. That can be frustrating at times. Just pushing onward. It's definitely way better than the start, where I wouldn't get sleep for like 2 days at a time often! That was insane! But better than THAT...is still pretty bad. Usually, at best I'll get like a few hours at a time.

-Brain fog a lot. I wake up feeling groggy or tired and that lingers throughout the day. Mentally, I don't have a ton of energy still. I'm thinking maybe I need to factor in some breaks, like weekends off or something to try to see if that fixes this issue. We'll see, I'll think about it.

-Hunger pangs are constant on this sub. It's nuts and a real concern, annoying too while doing intermittent fasting as it's constantly ruining your fasting! It causes me to wrestle it to make sure I keep my weight relatively in check where I got it to a few years ago, when I lost 65 pounds and have been so proud of that. For example, this morning, 2-3 hours ago, I ate 3 Aeros...THREE...AEROS...and my stomach is again grumbling like mad. It's crazy. No idea what is the purpose for all these calories being sourced as there isn't an "aura" to power or anything. I'm keeping a close eye on my weight, I'm not letting it get out of hand again.

I think that's about it for now. Hope you're all well. Thought it was time for an update.

The hunger pangs were horrible for me on E3 too in addition to some other GI issues.