Just a short update.
There are so many things that have happened and I would have to say that most people here are experiencing those like Keith, Infinite (her SO), guyinlahore and even Shannon. So this is why I didn't write anything as it's just the same thing.
I have taken 1 week break from USLM3 as I have been listening to 3 loops daily. I think I have gotten used to 3 loops maybe I should step up on 4 loops.
Tbh I don't even remember I am listening to USLM3.. Auto-play app(Macrodroid) does all the work. All I do is check once in a week maybe to see if the tablet is still on or not in case my subconscious tries to fuk up anything as we all know.
It's gonna be 8 Months of USLM3 in 10 days. The perception of time has indeed changed. I won't say its running out or too slow it's just going at right pace.
I have this thinking that I can do anything I want to but not everything.
Also I am on Antidepressants for my Severe OCD. This OCD stuff goes way back to my great grand parents.. Its not gonna be easy solving this genetic stuff.
Externally everything goes smooth but internally I am very confused.. But even in all this confusion if I try I succeed even if I don't feel like doing it.
I think SSRIs are helping me but I seriously don't know when my cognitive abilities mainly my " laser focus" will be back.
My Psychiatrist said that OCD is both a Curse and Boon.. If you control it then you exceeded all expectations and if not its destroys you.
I have seen this how it has many in previous generations and stories I have heard and things I have seen. Things now make sense why everything was like this..
It was like I was the first one in many generations who could see that something was wrong.
Anyway I just want my "Laser focus" back. Believe or not I have never ever finished a book in my entire life.. All I have is deep level of universal understanding which people don't see or fail to understand.. But not you guys..
I still have to work alot on myself and heal, fix and make myself stronger. People respect me but tbh I know there is more, this is just me "scratching the surface"..
If it wasn't for USLM3 I wouldn't have reached this stage atleast not in this life that's for sure. The fear is too deep in the mind/subconscious or DNA. Its gonna take time maybe another 2 years to reach a new level..
Idk what secrets Shannon knows but healing and removing/overcoming fear takes time, energy and experience.. according to my current mindset and perception.. Anything is possible..
I remember in 2017 I was the type of person who was even afraid to face the Amazon delivery boy..Let alone talk to Strangers like I do today.. I was that much fucked up.. So much fear and it's still there but not so much over-powering but still there.. Hardly wanted to face anything..
There are so many things that have happened and I would have to say that most people here are experiencing those like Keith, Infinite (her SO), guyinlahore and even Shannon. So this is why I didn't write anything as it's just the same thing.
I have taken 1 week break from USLM3 as I have been listening to 3 loops daily. I think I have gotten used to 3 loops maybe I should step up on 4 loops.
Tbh I don't even remember I am listening to USLM3.. Auto-play app(Macrodroid) does all the work. All I do is check once in a week maybe to see if the tablet is still on or not in case my subconscious tries to fuk up anything as we all know.
It's gonna be 8 Months of USLM3 in 10 days. The perception of time has indeed changed. I won't say its running out or too slow it's just going at right pace.
I have this thinking that I can do anything I want to but not everything.
Also I am on Antidepressants for my Severe OCD. This OCD stuff goes way back to my great grand parents.. Its not gonna be easy solving this genetic stuff.
Externally everything goes smooth but internally I am very confused.. But even in all this confusion if I try I succeed even if I don't feel like doing it.
I think SSRIs are helping me but I seriously don't know when my cognitive abilities mainly my " laser focus" will be back.
My Psychiatrist said that OCD is both a Curse and Boon.. If you control it then you exceeded all expectations and if not its destroys you.
I have seen this how it has many in previous generations and stories I have heard and things I have seen. Things now make sense why everything was like this..
It was like I was the first one in many generations who could see that something was wrong.
Anyway I just want my "Laser focus" back. Believe or not I have never ever finished a book in my entire life.. All I have is deep level of universal understanding which people don't see or fail to understand.. But not you guys..
I still have to work alot on myself and heal, fix and make myself stronger. People respect me but tbh I know there is more, this is just me "scratching the surface"..
If it wasn't for USLM3 I wouldn't have reached this stage atleast not in this life that's for sure. The fear is too deep in the mind/subconscious or DNA. Its gonna take time maybe another 2 years to reach a new level..
Idk what secrets Shannon knows but healing and removing/overcoming fear takes time, energy and experience.. according to my current mindset and perception.. Anything is possible..
I remember in 2017 I was the type of person who was even afraid to face the Amazon delivery boy..Let alone talk to Strangers like I do today.. I was that much fucked up.. So much fear and it's still there but not so much over-powering but still there.. Hardly wanted to face anything..
