06-14-2019, 01:51 AM
(06-13-2019, 02:53 PM)LiquidMind Wrote:(06-13-2019, 02:22 PM)PDjunkie Wrote: taking another 3 day break.
Lots of other girls popping out the woodworks that I don't even really pay attention to who seem to be really giggly and smiley over god knows what with me while we're both stood at the coffee machine..
Respect and differential treatment becoming even more evident from managers, and overall respect and celebrity status from other guys kicking in too. This higher status body language and walk is becoming more and more natural for me as time goes on and I now no longer feel so much like I am forcing my posture to be upright and my shoulders pushed far back. I'm a lot more natural with it now and it's just becoming more "me".
When in doubt, lean back. I treat it like a mantra. I've made it such a habit to always self correct both tongue posture for ideal facial aesthetics and body posture for my overall sexiness/high status vibe.
Whereas before I'd fear that I'd look too arrogant and cocky if I were to constantly lean as far back as I can in my chair at work with one arm resting on the next chair, this type of body language is becoming my natural inclination and I genuinely feel more comfortable like that. I'd rather look a little cocky than sit for 8 hours a day hunched over like everyone else does. really does just look awful how everyone does that the more you think about it.
Voice seems to be getting deeper yet and had even more people commenting on it lately including a senior boss who made the comment that I have one of the deepest voices he's ever heard. I don't consciously think of it as that deep but I guess my energy is so grounded now that it's just natural. Also could be an effect of being about 3-4 months into a nofap semen retention streak which has that effect of highly increased testosterone and groundedness.
I'm sure I'm digressing a lot but I don't post daily and want to be as honest as I can and try and cover as many relevant points about behavioural traits and manifestations I've noticed that could be, and likely are, DMSI related.
I had a bit of a breakthrough yesterday when I was in a really bad mood and told my manager to cancel off my prebooked overtime for the day. It's not allowed as you're required to work any extra hours you've pre-agreed to do. Everyone says you can't cancel it. I decided to just walk up to him and tell him to cancel it. I surprised myself with how authoritative and matter-of-fact it came out. He just sort of was like "wait whaa? oh... ok, sure.."
Key lesson for me. Tone of voice, and frame control is everything. He who has the strongest frame and conviction wins.
Aura's been heating up a LOT more frequently and with more intensity too as of this past 7 days. Whereas previously it would occasionally happen, for a short period of time, and with mild intensity, it is now happening often. Even driving with aircon on and windows open and in a t-shirt the aura was heating up my entire body and I was just so hot all over.
While I've been having some major breakthroughs in the man I am and the carefree and overtly sexual way I communicate with and flirt with women, there's still been something eating at me beneath the surface these past 2 days... frustration... and... jealousy. I believe jealousy in the last insecurity really playing on me these past couple days. jealousy of other guys who may be competition. and I see their jealousy in me when I talk to the same girls they're trying to pick up.. I believe jealousy is a deep seated symptom of one of my last true insecurities coming to*****with me while DMSI's FRM tries to boot its ass to timbucktoo.
I wonder if any other guys have had experiences with jealousy of other men whilst on DMSI? Will be interesting as hell to hear about if so. It's genuinely never really been a theme in my life up until this point; seems to have quite literally surfaced out of nowhere.
Hey man this is some good progress here
I got random heat spikes too as well but I am currently refraining from masturbating so I think it'll help with the aura even more
As for the guys jealousy thing I hear you check this out:
So the girl at work who is mad into me lately has got plenty of other guys trying to get with her too
They don't verbalise it but you can just tell
Now
Add me into the mix and suddenly I'm overhearing faint whispers over by the guys saying stuff like "hey isn't that LM over there the guy X is into?" and hushed tones like that
I can't be certain that was said 100% but I am sure guys are getting jealous of the attention I'm getting from the girl at work
You'll soon see this too
If there's a queen at your work and guys orbit her and shes into you, the guys will suddenly be into you as well (for different reasons of course lol)
Keep it up man and don't let any guys throw you off your game (most probably will be too chicken sh*t to try anyways)
When this used to happen to me pre-sub, guys would be into me but would somehow try make me act stupid in front of the girl so I self sabotage my chances.
Beware, lol.
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