06-12-2019, 02:52 AM
Thanks guys. Shannon, it makes sense when you put it like that. I'm doing my best to keep moving forward. I guess I've just had a lot of bad association with change in the past. Some of it probably stemming from childhood. It's not as easy to reach those parts for me.My more surface layer consciousness understands it's not the truth. But deeper down it feels like this expectancy or guaranteed thing. If I had something solid or an experience I could show it, I feel like that would permanently shake this. It's a long pattern of fear, that's for certain. I guess looking at it now I'm seeing how the fear I've carried all my life over the future has diminished. I used to be unable to make it a day without having thoughts that something terrible was going to happen to me.
INFP
