Today was another very interesting SM3 learning day.
I met a small brunette at the gym that I havent seen for a long time. I always felt that there was some mutual attraction between us but neither of us never dared to make a move.
but I was happy to see her and I did hug her. In fact, I was more touching everyone by placing gently my hand in the back of one of the girl to be able pass behind her. I was tapping my buddies on the shoulder to encourage them.
So back to the small brunette, I had the impression that she did orbitate around me for the whole class.
I had some ah ah moment. I was having eye contact with her and this did appear to have a profound effect on her. She was looking back and smiling at me. She did initiate conversation few times with me... The sensation that I had at some point is that in opposition to my past where most of the time the women's sexual arousal was something simply out of my control. It could happen or it could not. The effect that my eye contact was doing to the small brunette did make me realize that I was controlling her arousal and if I kept looking at her and flirting with her, she would start to eventually become aroused. It is probably the first time that I have so clearly this awareness of that power that I possess.
I was more flirting... I have got paired with the girls at the end of the class for the finisher. The finisher today was a pain. We had to, as a team, gather 150 calories on the assault bike. This thing is a device directly from hell. It takes about 30 seconds to rack up 10 calories and when you are done, you just totally exhausted and you only have 1 minute before your next turn comes.
I was the last to do the last 10 calories. It was the small brunette who was before me and I did told her that if she was able to do the last 10 calories, I would invite her out and pay her a drink. The assault bike experience is so horrible that she did decline my offer and did laugh about it... The point is that I got outside my comfort zone simply for seeding the idea of the pull in her mind. It may look like not much but that is not something that I'm used to do so I'm delighted to see my behavior changing under my eyes effortlessly.
Finally, before leaving, I did notice that there was a lot chalk on the small brunette pants around her ass area... Don't ask me why... but I have been compelled to go at her rub her ass under the pretext of helping her to remove the chalk on her pants... This is kinda ballsy and against #metoo etiquette... Something that I would never have dared doing because of my social programming before.
I just felt compelled to do it, I was feeling as if it was perfectly normal thing to do and I did just did that brush away the chalk powder on her ass and she did like my gesture ;-) and I suspect that again this change is due to SM3 programming...
So far, I love SM3... I'm seeing my behavior changing under my own eyes and I'm becoming bold sexually... It is definitely a different beast than DMSI... With DMSI, I was feeling that women were attracted but I felt like I was remaining the same person. Here with SM3, I am feeling that I am changing and this is exactly what I wanted and expected with the program.
Just 5 days in and I'm super happy of what is happening.
I met a small brunette at the gym that I havent seen for a long time. I always felt that there was some mutual attraction between us but neither of us never dared to make a move.
but I was happy to see her and I did hug her. In fact, I was more touching everyone by placing gently my hand in the back of one of the girl to be able pass behind her. I was tapping my buddies on the shoulder to encourage them.
So back to the small brunette, I had the impression that she did orbitate around me for the whole class.
I had some ah ah moment. I was having eye contact with her and this did appear to have a profound effect on her. She was looking back and smiling at me. She did initiate conversation few times with me... The sensation that I had at some point is that in opposition to my past where most of the time the women's sexual arousal was something simply out of my control. It could happen or it could not. The effect that my eye contact was doing to the small brunette did make me realize that I was controlling her arousal and if I kept looking at her and flirting with her, she would start to eventually become aroused. It is probably the first time that I have so clearly this awareness of that power that I possess.
I was more flirting... I have got paired with the girls at the end of the class for the finisher. The finisher today was a pain. We had to, as a team, gather 150 calories on the assault bike. This thing is a device directly from hell. It takes about 30 seconds to rack up 10 calories and when you are done, you just totally exhausted and you only have 1 minute before your next turn comes.
I was the last to do the last 10 calories. It was the small brunette who was before me and I did told her that if she was able to do the last 10 calories, I would invite her out and pay her a drink. The assault bike experience is so horrible that she did decline my offer and did laugh about it... The point is that I got outside my comfort zone simply for seeding the idea of the pull in her mind. It may look like not much but that is not something that I'm used to do so I'm delighted to see my behavior changing under my eyes effortlessly.
Finally, before leaving, I did notice that there was a lot chalk on the small brunette pants around her ass area... Don't ask me why... but I have been compelled to go at her rub her ass under the pretext of helping her to remove the chalk on her pants... This is kinda ballsy and against #metoo etiquette... Something that I would never have dared doing because of my social programming before.
I just felt compelled to do it, I was feeling as if it was perfectly normal thing to do and I did just did that brush away the chalk powder on her ass and she did like my gesture ;-) and I suspect that again this change is due to SM3 programming...
So far, I love SM3... I'm seeing my behavior changing under my own eyes and I'm becoming bold sexually... It is definitely a different beast than DMSI... With DMSI, I was feeling that women were attracted but I felt like I was remaining the same person. Here with SM3, I am feeling that I am changing and this is exactly what I wanted and expected with the program.
Just 5 days in and I'm super happy of what is happening.
