05-29-2019, 11:59 AM
Had a big night out on the town this weekend and a chick from work I've been chatting to was there. She greeted me keenly with a hug and we chatted for a bit. A couple times she came up to me while chatting and stood really close with her arm wrapped around my waist like a lover. Felt good. At one point she did so and randomly started asking me if she can go back with me. In my drunkenness I totally neglected to read between the lines and assumed she was merely wanting to share a taxi. I should've been more sober minded and escalated further that night but she didn't move from the same spot where she was having a serious conversation with her friends.
She did come out on her own and look for me while I was sat outside in the smoking area but she didn't seem to see me and went back inside. I didn't see her again after that then it clicked that she'd looked for me before leaving so we could go together. Oh well, I don't invest too much.
Last couple days I've been feeling the first signs of real resistance in my subconscious mind and feel like I've stonewalled a little bit. While my overall confidence, flirtation and desire to attract sex has gone up, physical signs and girls chasing has gone down. That said I've felt that resistance and also the aura heating up more today as well as a moment in time when I really felt a state-shift happening where I felt immense energy running to my head and the heat throughout my entire face and body and felt my brainwaves slow right down to a more trance-like manifestational state like on a couple occasions I randomly experienced at work and at a restaurant during my first two weeks of DMSI use.
I genuinely believe I'm reaching the point where my subconscious is putting up resistance because the sub is about to kick in and truly start executing phenomenal results. That's what my intuition and logic tells me from my experience the past couple days. Everything that's happened prior has just been a taster.
Maybe I should just relax, try and intentionally NOT flirt with any women or think about sex at all.
She did come out on her own and look for me while I was sat outside in the smoking area but she didn't seem to see me and went back inside. I didn't see her again after that then it clicked that she'd looked for me before leaving so we could go together. Oh well, I don't invest too much.
Last couple days I've been feeling the first signs of real resistance in my subconscious mind and feel like I've stonewalled a little bit. While my overall confidence, flirtation and desire to attract sex has gone up, physical signs and girls chasing has gone down. That said I've felt that resistance and also the aura heating up more today as well as a moment in time when I really felt a state-shift happening where I felt immense energy running to my head and the heat throughout my entire face and body and felt my brainwaves slow right down to a more trance-like manifestational state like on a couple occasions I randomly experienced at work and at a restaurant during my first two weeks of DMSI use.
I genuinely believe I'm reaching the point where my subconscious is putting up resistance because the sub is about to kick in and truly start executing phenomenal results. That's what my intuition and logic tells me from my experience the past couple days. Everything that's happened prior has just been a taster.
Maybe I should just relax, try and intentionally NOT flirt with any women or think about sex at all.
