Thanks man.
Morning inisght. After that last post and getting back on LTU I started thinking about life in general. I've been affirming how I live now is not my reality and I just need to choose what I want. To do that I've realized I have to let go of any identification with this current life I live. What's "me". Which is funny because if I never got to choose who I wanted to be and what I wanted to experience, can I truly say that those beliefs I hold about myself are "me"? I don't think so. I think I was conditioned to behave in a certain manner that isn't me and I've just been following that. The anxiety is because I strongly identify with that being a part of me.
I was thinking about Shannon's radio station analogy for choosing a different reality. The anger and frustration won't do anything unless I use them as fuel to tune into something else. Otherwise I'm getting angry at the radio for not playing the songs I like and that's it.
When I get home from work today I'm going to really write down my goals. Zero in on these and I won't accept limitations or compromise. I'm going to shift my focus to what I do want vs constantly reinforcing undesirable aspects of my life by giving them excessive focus. I know this is possible, I just have to be consistent and not let the fear pull me back to old comfort and safe ways.
Oh one more thing. I understand how it's not that other things are impossible, but rather I put too much weight in the life I've currently experienced for the longest time. Basically I see some things as more true than others when in reality they are equal, it's just the subjective perspective I project onto it. So to move into another life it's not about trying really hard and fighting to overcome, but rather letting go of the old life as "the truth" and allowing the new to emerge. If excessive effort happens that implies one reality has more weight than the other, which means a part of me is still identifying with it too much.
The problem is for me and possibly others the fact that humans are pattern based creatures. If your life has followed a consistent pattern for years you start to believe that it's your life. When in reality it was just a collection of experiences that you tied together in a neat little bundle of internalized behaviors and thinking. The freedom is understanding that all of that time and experience does not coorelate to "truth". And if that doesn't equal a truth or reality that means alternatives are just as possible or easily lived.
Morning inisght. After that last post and getting back on LTU I started thinking about life in general. I've been affirming how I live now is not my reality and I just need to choose what I want. To do that I've realized I have to let go of any identification with this current life I live. What's "me". Which is funny because if I never got to choose who I wanted to be and what I wanted to experience, can I truly say that those beliefs I hold about myself are "me"? I don't think so. I think I was conditioned to behave in a certain manner that isn't me and I've just been following that. The anxiety is because I strongly identify with that being a part of me.
I was thinking about Shannon's radio station analogy for choosing a different reality. The anger and frustration won't do anything unless I use them as fuel to tune into something else. Otherwise I'm getting angry at the radio for not playing the songs I like and that's it.
When I get home from work today I'm going to really write down my goals. Zero in on these and I won't accept limitations or compromise. I'm going to shift my focus to what I do want vs constantly reinforcing undesirable aspects of my life by giving them excessive focus. I know this is possible, I just have to be consistent and not let the fear pull me back to old comfort and safe ways.
Oh one more thing. I understand how it's not that other things are impossible, but rather I put too much weight in the life I've currently experienced for the longest time. Basically I see some things as more true than others when in reality they are equal, it's just the subjective perspective I project onto it. So to move into another life it's not about trying really hard and fighting to overcome, but rather letting go of the old life as "the truth" and allowing the new to emerge. If excessive effort happens that implies one reality has more weight than the other, which means a part of me is still identifying with it too much.
The problem is for me and possibly others the fact that humans are pattern based creatures. If your life has followed a consistent pattern for years you start to believe that it's your life. When in reality it was just a collection of experiences that you tied together in a neat little bundle of internalized behaviors and thinking. The freedom is understanding that all of that time and experience does not coorelate to "truth". And if that doesn't equal a truth or reality that means alternatives are just as possible or easily lived.
INFP
