Findingme's LTU5 Journal

[findingme]

I'm glad you're peeling back these layers and healing them Findingme. And I'm happy for your wife and daughter.

EP, I'd like to encourage you here

I didn't have to dig, trudge, grind, and sweat to become aware of this. Having been in modern therapeutic environments a lot, "peeling" is a common term, and it's used when people are going through major changes.

But.....growing with these subliminals is a godsend since "I" barely have any work to do. The hardest part of using these subliminals, to me, is nothing more than acceptance of the truths I've been avoiding for so long. The subs actually do all the digging, mending, and sewing stuff back together. My "norm" is not normal any more.

And the reason I clearly bring this out is that in all my years of inner work, my belief was simply "this is going to scary and hard". That same belief padlocked me to old habits, thinking, and behaviors. Doing it unaided IS absolutely very hard and discouraging at times. For example, this morning I read a daily email I'd signed up for from Adult Children of Alcoholics (ACA), and it said all the negative stuff like "we have distanced ourselves from people in our lives." I rejected my old way of accepting this negative truth, but only since I'm on LTU now, and it is changing my whole outlook from "my life is f***ed" to "my life is FUN!" Damn, I'll take the latter any day of the week.

With Shannon's subs, the new becomes "normal" very quickly. Old standards and expectations just don't fit here. The Naturalizer, only one of his resistance prevention tools, makes the new very unseen as it comes in quickly and completely, obliterating old unproductive norms and beliefs.

Change, as often noted by others here, is unseen until someone points it out. That's a beautiful reality.

I've been following posts in your journal, and a few have been pointing you towards E3 since the price is much more realistic for your current income setup. I'd take that ugly dare and jump in as soon as you can!

Life can be GREAT! E2 is a step on the ladder, but if possible, jump on E3 soon. The negative emotions which shout their demands and commands are NO FUN, nor have they ever been.

Think on this before responding. Your emotions are not wrong. They're just emotions. They are not all of you. In time, you'll see those loud parts as just pieces of you trying to find some safe and loving norm. You are lovable, and you are loved. Even while not trusting yourself believing this, it IS true. You are lovable. And you're loved. Live in that, if even for a few seconds. E3 will allow a lot more of it too