05-14-2019, 10:03 AM
I started this cycle on a night off, so I ran it during sleep which I haven’t done for a while. It was different this time. I spent a considerable amount of time in a half sleep state during which I was being quite introspective. All I remember is thinking about a time when I hadn’t been accepted by a group and I thought “I’ve never been accepted by a group” and this caused a pang of emotional pain. The statement was partially true at least, and I realized that it had caused me a significant amount of pain throughout my life. I was able to identify that instead of cluelessly feeling it and dwelling it without knowing why. I also didn’t convert the pain to anger like I usually do, just identified it and let it pass. This is new.
I also seemed to dream most of the night, but I don’t remember what any of them were about.
I also seemed to dream most of the night, but I don’t remember what any of them were about.
