05-08-2019, 08:07 AM
(05-08-2019, 12:46 AM)Paul1131 Wrote: Interesting, we should talk about this. I’ve been having a persistent daydream about being able to sort of go back on my timeline to my eighteenth birthday with a supply of IML subs. I always start with AM7 which I think would be just what I needed back then.
In reality I’ve noticed that FRM (I assume that’s what it was because I started noticing this on USLM2) has kind of a past (memory) editor function. It seems to make me remember certain situations a bit differently. Not so much the events themselves as my emotional reaction to them. For instance I remember just moving on when my first couple relationships ended. I know bloody well that I took each of them really hard for a really long time, but that’s not how I remember it, and not how it’s having an emotional impact on me in the present day.
I didn’t feel quite the confidence today as I did yesterday, but I noticed that I still feel very confident. My low days are now better than my high days used to be as far as that aspect is concerned. It’s very hard to pick up on, it just feels like this is my normal baseline of confidence, and I have to really think about it to remember that it used to be much lower just a few months ago.
I also think back to how stressed out I was this time last year at the height of our financial crisis. I’m not sure how that didn’t drive me nuts. Now, we aren’t in a much better situation, and we’re really starting to feel it, but I don’t feel nearly as bad. The end of this month marks the end of it, and I’m a lot more sure of that than I was last year.
It sounds like you're making good progress on LTU5. It sounds like everybody's making good progress on LTU5! I really look forward to using it myself. I wish you the best and hope your financial situation improves.
