05-07-2019, 06:41 AM
(05-06-2019, 11:28 PM)Paul1131 Wrote: This is night two of my ASRB break, and I have been on LTU for two months.
I feel extremely confident tonight, and realize that I’ve been feeling that way for a while. Tonight is through the roof, I feel great. My body language is different, and while I’m conscious of it, it’s perfectly natural and caused by the way I’m thinking and feeling, not a conscious decision to move or stand that way. I feel very strong and natural dealing with people, and my voice has dropped a few octaves, and I’m using really awesome inflections. I look everyone in the eye now, and talk to them without the formal distance I usually maintain. I don’t always feel this way consciously, but tonight feels awesome.
This evening when I left for work my wife pointed out that I had left a light on by asking me if I had stock in the electric company. I looked at her and she said “Hey, I made it into a joke,”. This is different. Before she might have used those words, but it would be a lead in to lecturing or yelling. This time she almost acted like she’d done something wrong and knew it by even mentioning it. I’m not sure what this means, but I’ll take it as an improvement. I’m going to get to a place where she doesn’t even vocalize small faults like that, and this may be a step on that road.
Man this is AWESOME progress. Really. I'm impressed and somewhat jealous haha. But it really give me some look onto what LTU5 is capable to do. Thanks for sharing that.
Regarding your wife I would bet you "looking at her" probably no longer had a component of vulnerability that was there before and she now couldn't get to you so she realized what she was doing rather than taking out crap on you.
