04-26-2019, 03:23 AM
Been a while since I updated this
I wanted to give a whole month to see if there were any drastic changes between last post and now because although certain things were changing it didn't feel like a whole lot was happening.
That's the thing.
You don't sense anything happening day by day because it is a seamless transition. The modules work away in the background quietly but effectively, leaving you to improve without seeing it. Day by day reporting felt more like a chore than a diary entry.
So after almost a month I can say I feel I'm at the stage where life is tuned up somewhat. I am getting rid of old demons, went through some explicit yet still emotionally trying mental states and I have made diet changes which looking back now, would never have happened on conscious will power alone.
I've also been doing something quite effective in allowing me to become more like myself and that is to just accept all parts of you, good and bad. To give self love to the ego and when you begin to feel anxiety or depression or shame or guilt, to just give love to those parts instead of ignoring them or repressing them. Those parts of us are just screaming out for love and even the toughest among us need to feel loved in some way. Do that I can assure you, you'll feel better. Morals can be good but when you're trying to repress every "bad" thing about you, it's like your harming yourself. I treat the subconscious as another part of me and I give it and myself love when I can.
I might wait out until the end of may (3 months run is up) and post a final entry and see what has changed again.
Then it's on to maybe running a different sub.
LM
I wanted to give a whole month to see if there were any drastic changes between last post and now because although certain things were changing it didn't feel like a whole lot was happening.
That's the thing.
You don't sense anything happening day by day because it is a seamless transition. The modules work away in the background quietly but effectively, leaving you to improve without seeing it. Day by day reporting felt more like a chore than a diary entry.
So after almost a month I can say I feel I'm at the stage where life is tuned up somewhat. I am getting rid of old demons, went through some explicit yet still emotionally trying mental states and I have made diet changes which looking back now, would never have happened on conscious will power alone.
I've also been doing something quite effective in allowing me to become more like myself and that is to just accept all parts of you, good and bad. To give self love to the ego and when you begin to feel anxiety or depression or shame or guilt, to just give love to those parts instead of ignoring them or repressing them. Those parts of us are just screaming out for love and even the toughest among us need to feel loved in some way. Do that I can assure you, you'll feel better. Morals can be good but when you're trying to repress every "bad" thing about you, it's like your harming yourself. I treat the subconscious as another part of me and I give it and myself love when I can.
I might wait out until the end of may (3 months run is up) and post a final entry and see what has changed again.
Then it's on to maybe running a different sub.
LM
