04-23-2019, 08:21 PM
This thing just keeps on giving.
- The wife and I have gotten on very well since my last entry.
- I was really productive yesterday. Got a crap load done in the house and yard, but I hurt my knee so I took today to rest. Ok, I mean I went out to rake the thatch out of the yard until it hurt too bad to continue. I took a nap, and woke up when she was on her way home. Now, not two sentences in, she paused mid sentence to yell at another driver. Then she told me exactly what he/she had done. She does this a lot, and usually I find it extremely annoying. Today, I thought that it was like talking to someone who has torrents syndrome, and I started laughing. I told her that, and she didn’t get insulted or upset, a little defensive, but amused too. She kept defending what she was saying, I kept joking and genuinely laughing. I think she’s confused that she can’t get a rise out of me or bring me down. She told me that Jeep drivers are entitled. I drive a Jeep. At some point, I said that I had a plan to make myself easier to live with, I have to trade my Jeep in for an F150 raptor edition. (Which I am in no position to do, and wouldn’t anyway, too expensive).
- I noticed how patient I am with my son. I used to act patient, because my parents weren’t at all, but I felt angry. Now that’s gone, and I am really enjoying fatherhood. This is perhaps the most important effect I’ve noticed so far.
- I noticed that I actually feel happy a lot of the time now. I was just shooting for not feeling bad, now I feel actively good. I noticed that while laughing during that conversation.
- I’ve never been a violent person, but I was very angry. When people (especially the wife) were doing things that I felt angry about, I would envision myself doing all kinds of violence to them. I never did any of it, or even came close, but I’d see it in my mind’s eye. This doesn’t happen anymore. I’m not sure when it stopped, but I’m glad it did.
- The wife and I have gotten on very well since my last entry.
- I was really productive yesterday. Got a crap load done in the house and yard, but I hurt my knee so I took today to rest. Ok, I mean I went out to rake the thatch out of the yard until it hurt too bad to continue. I took a nap, and woke up when she was on her way home. Now, not two sentences in, she paused mid sentence to yell at another driver. Then she told me exactly what he/she had done. She does this a lot, and usually I find it extremely annoying. Today, I thought that it was like talking to someone who has torrents syndrome, and I started laughing. I told her that, and she didn’t get insulted or upset, a little defensive, but amused too. She kept defending what she was saying, I kept joking and genuinely laughing. I think she’s confused that she can’t get a rise out of me or bring me down. She told me that Jeep drivers are entitled. I drive a Jeep. At some point, I said that I had a plan to make myself easier to live with, I have to trade my Jeep in for an F150 raptor edition. (Which I am in no position to do, and wouldn’t anyway, too expensive).
- I noticed how patient I am with my son. I used to act patient, because my parents weren’t at all, but I felt angry. Now that’s gone, and I am really enjoying fatherhood. This is perhaps the most important effect I’ve noticed so far.
- I noticed that I actually feel happy a lot of the time now. I was just shooting for not feeling bad, now I feel actively good. I noticed that while laughing during that conversation.
- I’ve never been a violent person, but I was very angry. When people (especially the wife) were doing things that I felt angry about, I would envision myself doing all kinds of violence to them. I never did any of it, or even came close, but I’d see it in my mind’s eye. This doesn’t happen anymore. I’m not sure when it stopped, but I’m glad it did.
