Maximum Learning Speed - Run #2 (On break with ASC 5G)

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Feeling like I've stumbled upon the solitary "red pill"; I've gone through a stoic phase and have been grasping at this feeling for a little while.
You ready?

"THERE IS NO SOLE COMFORT."

Meaning: There is nothing - no person, no thing, no accomplishment - that you can rest upon and retain permanent satisfaction.
We know that we often feel as though the next achievement, gadget, or partner will make us feel complete. And these do, for a while. But we return to our feeling of dissatisfaction for a while. The motivation behind the compulsive need to grasp the next goal is often illusory (doesn't mean that you shouldn't have a purpose or proverbial mountain to climb).
If your state of mind and of well-being depend on a physical set of circumstances, then these fall apart should your circumstances change.
You can try to force the situation to go your way, but there is only so long that you can only force a situation to conform to your will before life revolts and resists.
Meanwhile, you will have burned up so much energy in resisting and clamoring, and in other things that don't matter.

This realization has brought me a fair amount of dread about my life.