Findingme's LTU5 Journal

[findingme]

You have to overcome it and outgrow it.  How hard it is depends on you.

I'm realizing I keep making it hard.  "If I focus on it being "hard", noone will ask me what I'm really scared of"

I've been....terrified of failing, for I feel pain just imagining it.  I think I associate it with people leaving me.  Maybe I'm reliving something now, as this is unusually vivid in my emotions.  I must be, as I tried changing my POV, and I felt unable to do so.  Like I'm hanging onto pain.  Why would I do that?  

I'll post this.  Fear is trying to have me delete/ignore this.