04-14-2019, 01:52 PM
Thanks for your replies Fellas.
How do you really know if it’s the sub making you feel a certain way or if it’s you, your physiological self making you feel depressed. I have been feeling like shit the past few days. Is it the meds, I went back on my SSRI today in combo with NSI just bc all I’ve done today is sleep. I tried a new montage with tDCS today to help with my mood. Is it LTU making me feel this way or is it just that I’m all effed up.
There have been some good days, but far and few between. My mind just feels useless, slow and dull. The whole idea of NSI making me smart and enhancing my memory/cognitive abilities like it has for a lot seems like wishful thinking at this point.
It’s like I’m realizing what I am even more as I listen to LTU and I don’t like what I’m finding out. Last wk at this time I felt great, had a wonderful Sunday and was my second day on NSI. I had nothing but great expectations for the future and here I am back to feeling like I have for the past 2 months; sad and hopeless.
Do I go back to smoking weed everyday?!? It’s still medication, just a different form. It gave me that “it” factor, I was with it and on it. It wasn’t just me being high either, I was producing.
Whoa is me right....
I’m running from the person I don’t want to be and wake up to be him everyday. I try to change the man in the mirror but the struggle continues. Feel like a dog chasing my tail.
How do you really know if it’s the sub making you feel a certain way or if it’s you, your physiological self making you feel depressed. I have been feeling like shit the past few days. Is it the meds, I went back on my SSRI today in combo with NSI just bc all I’ve done today is sleep. I tried a new montage with tDCS today to help with my mood. Is it LTU making me feel this way or is it just that I’m all effed up.
There have been some good days, but far and few between. My mind just feels useless, slow and dull. The whole idea of NSI making me smart and enhancing my memory/cognitive abilities like it has for a lot seems like wishful thinking at this point.
It’s like I’m realizing what I am even more as I listen to LTU and I don’t like what I’m finding out. Last wk at this time I felt great, had a wonderful Sunday and was my second day on NSI. I had nothing but great expectations for the future and here I am back to feeling like I have for the past 2 months; sad and hopeless.
Do I go back to smoking weed everyday?!? It’s still medication, just a different form. It gave me that “it” factor, I was with it and on it. It wasn’t just me being high either, I was producing.
Whoa is me right....
I’m running from the person I don’t want to be and wake up to be him everyday. I try to change the man in the mirror but the struggle continues. Feel like a dog chasing my tail.
