04-07-2019, 06:45 PM
(This post was last modified: 04-07-2019, 06:46 PM by Hittman1124.)
2nd day of my third round of LTU 5.5
My NSI 189 arrived yesterday. I was very hopeful that it would work and USLM was leading me to this. Yesterday was a total disappointment, I went to bed either thinking suicide was the option or I was going to go to some long term meditation retreat to find myself. Quit my job and try to figure my life out, I don’t want to commit suicide due to my loving family.
I woke up last night to very vivid nightmares, the details and imagery of my dream were the most vivid I’ve ever had. I can remember most of my dream for the entirety of the night. I have never experienced this before, it was like watching a motion picture.
I woke up feeling great and positive and had a reddit reply giving grave detail of their positive experience on NSI which gave me great hope.
Today was the best day I’ve had in 2019. I was full of positive emotion and enjoyed the company of family and friends. I felt great. I don’t necessarily think it is LTU making these effects, but it leading me to the solutions. I will be starting my experiment with Interactive Metronome this week. For once since my suicide attempt I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
My NSI 189 arrived yesterday. I was very hopeful that it would work and USLM was leading me to this. Yesterday was a total disappointment, I went to bed either thinking suicide was the option or I was going to go to some long term meditation retreat to find myself. Quit my job and try to figure my life out, I don’t want to commit suicide due to my loving family.
I woke up last night to very vivid nightmares, the details and imagery of my dream were the most vivid I’ve ever had. I can remember most of my dream for the entirety of the night. I have never experienced this before, it was like watching a motion picture.
I woke up feeling great and positive and had a reddit reply giving grave detail of their positive experience on NSI which gave me great hope.
Today was the best day I’ve had in 2019. I was full of positive emotion and enjoyed the company of family and friends. I felt great. I don’t necessarily think it is LTU making these effects, but it leading me to the solutions. I will be starting my experiment with Interactive Metronome this week. For once since my suicide attempt I see the light at the end of the tunnel.
