03-24-2019, 09:48 AM
Went to a music show last night. Heavy downtempo bass music, it was pretty chill. Took me a bit to turn off the part of my brain that heavily analyzes music. I tend to do that a lot because I'm always learning from music. But last night taught me you have to know when to shut that off in your own music as well. Sometimes I get so caught up in refining the track so much I lose the initial inspiration of the track. I guess it's moreso silencing that inner critic. Where I'm at right now with my music, it's definitely lacking in areas. But I can only bridge that gap by continuing to work on that, so criticizing myself heavily for where I'm at makes no sense because I'll only prevent myself from reaching that.
I'm noticing the ultra success kicking in. I've been struggling with concepts as it pertains to creating music and it's been clicking for me. There's a lot out there right now that is just plain wrong as far as music creation goes. I've watched so many tutorials, read blogs, forums, etc. and there is A LOT of bad information. I'm learning more doing things on my own vs looking for the info out there. I'm actually unlearning a lot of terrible habits right now that I picked up from researching some of this stuff. USLM is definitely putting me on the right path as far as figuring this stuff out goes, but I've realized it is a harder path. A lot of music has been condensed down to a formula or paint by numbers creation without discussing the principles behind it. It's those underlying principles that make a good musician. I think the reason they can't be taught is because a lot of it is intuitive and comes with experience.
But going to this show last night it was surreal for me. To watch these guys performing their music. Living this life connected to music. Like a whole different reality compared to what I've been in. But I also felt upset at the same time because it felt like I'd never have that. LTU is still working out a lot of self esteem stuff, so that definitely plays into it. When it comes to music and that whole lifestyle behind it, it's basically a social thing. And people have always been my weak point. Or rather it's my perception of myself and I how I relate to other people. Even if someone wants to befriend me it's always a feeling of "why?" Needless to say I've always felt like an outsider.
I'm noticing the ultra success kicking in. I've been struggling with concepts as it pertains to creating music and it's been clicking for me. There's a lot out there right now that is just plain wrong as far as music creation goes. I've watched so many tutorials, read blogs, forums, etc. and there is A LOT of bad information. I'm learning more doing things on my own vs looking for the info out there. I'm actually unlearning a lot of terrible habits right now that I picked up from researching some of this stuff. USLM is definitely putting me on the right path as far as figuring this stuff out goes, but I've realized it is a harder path. A lot of music has been condensed down to a formula or paint by numbers creation without discussing the principles behind it. It's those underlying principles that make a good musician. I think the reason they can't be taught is because a lot of it is intuitive and comes with experience.
But going to this show last night it was surreal for me. To watch these guys performing their music. Living this life connected to music. Like a whole different reality compared to what I've been in. But I also felt upset at the same time because it felt like I'd never have that. LTU is still working out a lot of self esteem stuff, so that definitely plays into it. When it comes to music and that whole lifestyle behind it, it's basically a social thing. And people have always been my weak point. Or rather it's my perception of myself and I how I relate to other people. Even if someone wants to befriend me it's always a feeling of "why?" Needless to say I've always felt like an outsider.
INFP
