03-22-2019, 08:33 AM
(03-21-2019, 10:08 PM)Paul1131 Wrote: Last night off in progress. I’ve got a couple of things I haven’t mentioned yet.
- During the last few minutes of each loop, I feel surges of energy go up my spine to the top of my head. It’s getting more and more noticeable the longer I listen to this program. I first noticed it the first week, but now it happens every single loop. I’d say it’s about the last five minutes of each loop. Tonight I noticed that it’s happening sometimes when the sub isn’t playing, and now there’s a sense of energy swirling around me to go with it.
- For the last three nights, my wife has been criticizing me about one thing or another just as I am trying to get out the door for work. She’s picking increasingly small things, some of which were the roommate’s doing anyway to have larger and larger reactions to. I used to have an angry facial expression at the least and grind my teeth hard when I felt she was being unfairly critical. Since I’ve been on this program, I calmly stood there and listened. There is no tooth grinding or even facial tension at all. I don’t mean that I’m able to hold it in better, I mean I really wasn’t upset. I’m not really sure why I’ve let this behavior upset me so much all these years. I recognize that she’s taking various frustrations and fears that have nothing to do with me out on me, so I’m able to let it pass to some extent.
Tonight, I told her in a very calm and controlled voice that I thought she was being unfair to me, and that I didn’t deserve it. It seems to be kind of bothering her that she can’t get a rise out of me anymore. It’s going to be interesting to see what she does next.
Wow. Seems like you are making real progress with LTU5. It has piqued my interest further for LTU5.
