Last night off in progress. I’ve got a couple of things I haven’t mentioned yet.
- During the last few minutes of each loop, I feel surges of energy go up my spine to the top of my head. It’s getting more and more noticeable the longer I listen to this program. I first noticed it the first week, but now it happens every single loop. I’d say it’s about the last five minutes of each loop. Tonight I noticed that it’s happening sometimes when the sub isn’t playing, and now there’s a sense of energy swirling around me to go with it.
- For the last three nights, my wife has been criticizing me about one thing or another just as I am trying to get out the door for work. She’s picking increasingly small things, some of which were the roommate’s doing anyway to have larger and larger reactions to. I used to have an angry facial expression at the least and grind my teeth hard when I felt she was being unfairly critical. Since I’ve been on this program, I calmly stood there and listened. There is no tooth grinding or even facial tension at all. I don’t mean that I’m able to hold it in better, I mean I really wasn’t upset. I’m not really sure why I’ve let this behavior upset me so much all these years. I recognize that she’s taking various frustrations and fears that have nothing to do with me out on me, so I’m able to let it pass to some extent.
Tonight, I told her in a very calm and controlled voice that I thought she was being unfair to me, and that I didn’t deserve it. It seems to be kind of bothering her that she can’t get a rise out of me anymore. It’s going to be interesting to see what she does next.
- During the last few minutes of each loop, I feel surges of energy go up my spine to the top of my head. It’s getting more and more noticeable the longer I listen to this program. I first noticed it the first week, but now it happens every single loop. I’d say it’s about the last five minutes of each loop. Tonight I noticed that it’s happening sometimes when the sub isn’t playing, and now there’s a sense of energy swirling around me to go with it.
- For the last three nights, my wife has been criticizing me about one thing or another just as I am trying to get out the door for work. She’s picking increasingly small things, some of which were the roommate’s doing anyway to have larger and larger reactions to. I used to have an angry facial expression at the least and grind my teeth hard when I felt she was being unfairly critical. Since I’ve been on this program, I calmly stood there and listened. There is no tooth grinding or even facial tension at all. I don’t mean that I’m able to hold it in better, I mean I really wasn’t upset. I’m not really sure why I’ve let this behavior upset me so much all these years. I recognize that she’s taking various frustrations and fears that have nothing to do with me out on me, so I’m able to let it pass to some extent.
Tonight, I told her in a very calm and controlled voice that I thought she was being unfair to me, and that I didn’t deserve it. It seems to be kind of bothering her that she can’t get a rise out of me anymore. It’s going to be interesting to see what she does next.
