03-16-2019, 03:47 PM
Some days I just get so frustrated and I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. Like I want to do more, but I don't have the energy or I just don't know how to move forward. I'm probably just fighting LTU because I'm afraid. There's a certain level of fatigue I'm dealing with every day. Where it feels like I have to try as hard as possible just to make it through my day. For a good couple of weeks I found myself drinking coffee again because it helped me focus. But then I realized what it was really doing was derailing LTU and giving me an out.
Basically I'm disoriented. That's the only way I can put it. I genuinely don't know anymore about any of this. What I've dealt with, what I'm still dealing with, how to move past it, etc. It feels like I just took my entire encyclopedic knowledge of self help books I read over the years and threw it in the trash. Maybe that's what I need. To come at this from a new perspective vs old thinking. So I don't have any expectations or pressure of what I "should" be doing to get better.
Basically I'm disoriented. That's the only way I can put it. I genuinely don't know anymore about any of this. What I've dealt with, what I'm still dealing with, how to move past it, etc. It feels like I just took my entire encyclopedic knowledge of self help books I read over the years and threw it in the trash. Maybe that's what I need. To come at this from a new perspective vs old thinking. So I don't have any expectations or pressure of what I "should" be doing to get better.
INFP
