I’m currently listening to day three of my second set, and I’ve forgotten to mention something. There was absolutely no lessening of the effects during my days off. That twitch that I mentioned didn’t come back at all and neither did the aches and pains. I’ve read that some people are having that happen, and I did on USLM so I kind of put it down to having been on USLM for so long before starting LTU.
I had a really productive weekend. I got two problem areas of the house cleaned. I haven’t had this much focus since USLM 2, but this doesn’t feel like I’m going to work myself to death. Today I applied for two jobs. I have been really hesitant to apply for this type of job since I have failed the OJT for them twice in the past, but it’s what I really want to do. I was able to get through what I now reciognize as fear, not being sensible enough to actually apply. That’s forward progress.
I have also noticed:
- I read in someone else’s journal that they were grinding their teeth. That made me think about it, and I’m doing that a lot less than I used to. I think I still do it when I’m actively angry,but not nearly as much.
- I had waves of anger randomly surface today. I hadn’t thought about it much, but where that used to be a multiple times a day occurrence, this was the first time in a while.
- I seem to be smiling a lot more, and a lot more genuinely.
- I feel better and happier in general.
- I have almost completely replaced soda and energy drinks with sparkling water, and I am drinking a LOT of it. This was causing me quite a bit of discomfort at work last week. I have to have someone give me a break. This week I seem to be getting more used to it.
- I used to have frequent horrible indigestion. That’s stopped. I don’t know if that’s from diet change, less stress or what, but I feel better.
I had a really productive weekend. I got two problem areas of the house cleaned. I haven’t had this much focus since USLM 2, but this doesn’t feel like I’m going to work myself to death. Today I applied for two jobs. I have been really hesitant to apply for this type of job since I have failed the OJT for them twice in the past, but it’s what I really want to do. I was able to get through what I now reciognize as fear, not being sensible enough to actually apply. That’s forward progress.
I have also noticed:
- I read in someone else’s journal that they were grinding their teeth. That made me think about it, and I’m doing that a lot less than I used to. I think I still do it when I’m actively angry,but not nearly as much.
- I had waves of anger randomly surface today. I hadn’t thought about it much, but where that used to be a multiple times a day occurrence, this was the first time in a while.
- I seem to be smiling a lot more, and a lot more genuinely.
- I feel better and happier in general.
- I have almost completely replaced soda and energy drinks with sparkling water, and I am drinking a LOT of it. This was causing me quite a bit of discomfort at work last week. I have to have someone give me a break. This week I seem to be getting more used to it.
- I used to have frequent horrible indigestion. That’s stopped. I don’t know if that’s from diet change, less stress or what, but I feel better.
