03-12-2019, 04:58 PM
Hmmmm must have hit something. As soon as I had those thoughts and realizations it's like I snapped back. I became even more resistant to allowing these emotions and letting them go. I started resisting what came up and thought I was bypassing my negative thoughts, but I was really just holding them off using willpower. Definitely still fear about allowing these more powerful emotions that still exist within me. I don't know how to describe it but it's like a feeling of wanting to stop fighting it, but at the same time being afraid of being consumed by them.
I think part of me is still fighting the direction LTU is taking me. I can feel it as built up tension in my body. I'm doing my best to relax and let go, to allow myself to follow the instructions. But I find it very stop and go. One second I'm following along, the next second it's like I hit something that snaps me back like a rubber band. Even though it's very uncomfortable, I find myself being more positive so that helps offset it.
I think part of me is still fighting the direction LTU is taking me. I can feel it as built up tension in my body. I'm doing my best to relax and let go, to allow myself to follow the instructions. But I find it very stop and go. One second I'm following along, the next second it's like I hit something that snaps me back like a rubber band. Even though it's very uncomfortable, I find myself being more positive so that helps offset it.
INFP
