03-09-2019, 05:55 PM
Things don't feel like they are in retrograde anymore. Things have been slowly returning to normal however there is a lack of good luck on my side still. My sneezing has ceased for now but I am producing a lot of backed up phlegm now.
I'm cutting down on the sugar and reduced my junk food intake by around 20/30%. Combined with the reduction in sugared drinks I'm seeing a noticeable effect on my belly fat. I used to carry around quite a shapely spare tire but now it's on the way to slowly disappearing if I can keep things up.
For the first time since beginning such a life changing sub I'm finding myself admitting something I always used to deny. I feel more lonely than ever before. I used to convince myself I'm happy with a single life (and to a degree I still am it's just)
I quite like the idea of finding a girl to start sharing my life with. Open up to someone and just start having a relationship with someone. My strategies have always involved seeking ONS or hook ups. I've rejected a few women in my time that were wanting a relationship in the past. Not sure if I regret those as they really were not my type but I think one of them fell for me hard. I'd hate for that to be the only time in my life I ever get to see that again lol it'd end up being quite sad actually.
I feel bummed out just thinking that tbh. An attractive, honest, fun and down to earth girl would suit me well right now. I haven't got the slightest on where to start with that.
In terms of emotions I still get some heavy and strong ones from time to time. I suffer a lot from having a withdrawn personality who focuses on letting emotions out on the inside rather than letting them out externally (if that even makes sense)
I am confident this sub will fix these issues but for now, it's nice for me to experience this. It's a surreal feeling and suffice to say I'm actually enjoying the ride.
More to come later this week.
I'm cutting down on the sugar and reduced my junk food intake by around 20/30%. Combined with the reduction in sugared drinks I'm seeing a noticeable effect on my belly fat. I used to carry around quite a shapely spare tire but now it's on the way to slowly disappearing if I can keep things up.
For the first time since beginning such a life changing sub I'm finding myself admitting something I always used to deny. I feel more lonely than ever before. I used to convince myself I'm happy with a single life (and to a degree I still am it's just)
I quite like the idea of finding a girl to start sharing my life with. Open up to someone and just start having a relationship with someone. My strategies have always involved seeking ONS or hook ups. I've rejected a few women in my time that were wanting a relationship in the past. Not sure if I regret those as they really were not my type but I think one of them fell for me hard. I'd hate for that to be the only time in my life I ever get to see that again lol it'd end up being quite sad actually.
I feel bummed out just thinking that tbh. An attractive, honest, fun and down to earth girl would suit me well right now. I haven't got the slightest on where to start with that.
In terms of emotions I still get some heavy and strong ones from time to time. I suffer a lot from having a withdrawn personality who focuses on letting emotions out on the inside rather than letting them out externally (if that even makes sense)
I am confident this sub will fix these issues but for now, it's nice for me to experience this. It's a surreal feeling and suffice to say I'm actually enjoying the ride.
More to come later this week.
