02-28-2019, 03:07 PM
Phew, really rough day today. I start ltu 5 tonight, just coming off my 3 day break. I woke with a really nasty headache. But also this intense feeling in my stomach, I can only assume is the result of facing more fears. As the day progressed, I lost focus at work. I felt like 100% of my attention was going towards this internal healing. There was a connection between this feeling in my stomach and my headache. When I dove deeper into the feeling and didn't run away, my headache started to lift. But at the same time I got hit with these waves of panic.
I don't know how smooth LTU 5 will be for me, but I pretty much always expect the worst. My journey to freedom has been filled with a lot of emotional turbulence. Since I had a bad habit of turning away from these emotions, I'm more cautious nowadays about trying to make things easier. On one hand healing without the discomfort is welcomed, but on the other hand if I'm neglecting things because "it should be easy" I'll run into trouble.
I don't know how smooth LTU 5 will be for me, but I pretty much always expect the worst. My journey to freedom has been filled with a lot of emotional turbulence. Since I had a bad habit of turning away from these emotions, I'm more cautious nowadays about trying to make things easier. On one hand healing without the discomfort is welcomed, but on the other hand if I'm neglecting things because "it should be easy" I'll run into trouble.
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