02-27-2019, 07:17 PM
LTU seems to really bring you crashing back down to earth with a heavy thud.
I'm analysing what I'm even any good at anymore and coming back with nothing. It seems my ego has been protecting itself for years and constantly overestimating it's abilities and what I can truly do.
I suppose this is for the best as a healthy ego is a lot better than a disillusioned one.
I'm wondering if I should even care what I'm good at anymore? Like that portion of my life is over. Maybe looking to make the most adequate amount of money in my life time is more important right now. Or just enjoying myself and dropping this mental rubix cube I keep trying to solve.
LTU still has some work to do but so far since the weekend I feel life is slowly beginning to dissolve around me and show me what I really am. Once again this is a portion of the day where I begin to get hit by emotion and self reflection. I'll most likely wake up tomorrow and forget about this feeling. So I thought I'd document it all here so I can read back when I need.
I'm analysing what I'm even any good at anymore and coming back with nothing. It seems my ego has been protecting itself for years and constantly overestimating it's abilities and what I can truly do.
I suppose this is for the best as a healthy ego is a lot better than a disillusioned one.
I'm wondering if I should even care what I'm good at anymore? Like that portion of my life is over. Maybe looking to make the most adequate amount of money in my life time is more important right now. Or just enjoying myself and dropping this mental rubix cube I keep trying to solve.
LTU still has some work to do but so far since the weekend I feel life is slowly beginning to dissolve around me and show me what I really am. Once again this is a portion of the day where I begin to get hit by emotion and self reflection. I'll most likely wake up tomorrow and forget about this feeling. So I thought I'd document it all here so I can read back when I need.
