02-26-2019, 07:26 AM
Day 30
Start of my 4th cycle and not gonna sugarcoat it, things are not going well. I just went on a date. I screened her to be open minded in the texting and in person she was able to talk about sex very openly. She herself had only been with 3 guys but she seemed curious to try new things. Even asked me stuff like do I shave my pubes or not. I knew I had no time for the pull because it's a short night but at the end when I went for the kiss, she didn't want to, saying stuff like I don't do that on first date.
I feel so incensed. It's things like this that makes me really want to leave this country ASAP. I had to screen through so many girls to find one that's open minded, and when I meet her she turns out to be open minded on paper only, all talk and no action. It's not like she didn't like me, she's clearly attracted. In all fairness I might have been rusty, it's been more than 2 weeks since my last first date and I noticed I was derping about more, not as on point at reading where the interaction is at and steer it in the correct way.
Can't wait for my America trip. Also can't wait for the day my body is good enough for a shirtless picture. Intermittent fasting and diet are going well, I can see myself getting noticeably bigger. I also started taking Tongkat Ali yesterday. I'll be taking it for the next 6 weeks. I've taken it in the past and it helped me with muscle growth. I need all the help I can get now. The plan is to get a good shirtless pic before my trip in April. Hopefully my body will make it by that time. I'm also experiencing the Tongkat Ali anger. Not sure whether this will affect the validity of my DMSI results but if so then so be it. The picture is the most important thing to get now, it's an asset that can be used for many years to come.
Start of my 4th cycle and not gonna sugarcoat it, things are not going well. I just went on a date. I screened her to be open minded in the texting and in person she was able to talk about sex very openly. She herself had only been with 3 guys but she seemed curious to try new things. Even asked me stuff like do I shave my pubes or not. I knew I had no time for the pull because it's a short night but at the end when I went for the kiss, she didn't want to, saying stuff like I don't do that on first date.
I feel so incensed. It's things like this that makes me really want to leave this country ASAP. I had to screen through so many girls to find one that's open minded, and when I meet her she turns out to be open minded on paper only, all talk and no action. It's not like she didn't like me, she's clearly attracted. In all fairness I might have been rusty, it's been more than 2 weeks since my last first date and I noticed I was derping about more, not as on point at reading where the interaction is at and steer it in the correct way.
Can't wait for my America trip. Also can't wait for the day my body is good enough for a shirtless picture. Intermittent fasting and diet are going well, I can see myself getting noticeably bigger. I also started taking Tongkat Ali yesterday. I'll be taking it for the next 6 weeks. I've taken it in the past and it helped me with muscle growth. I need all the help I can get now. The plan is to get a good shirtless pic before my trip in April. Hopefully my body will make it by that time. I'm also experiencing the Tongkat Ali anger. Not sure whether this will affect the validity of my DMSI results but if so then so be it. The picture is the most important thing to get now, it's an asset that can be used for many years to come.
