05-04-2012, 08:57 AM
Just a quick update.
I spent a month on Natural Song and Lyrics Writing and it definitely did a lot of positive things. I got a big royalty payment in the middle of April which helped pay of some of my debt, also a lot of the music I wrote in the last month has being very successful and the directors I worked with were very happy with the results.
I have now started Alpha Male 5.0 and despite only been a week I am loving it so far. Today I feel really strong and also a genuine sense of self appreciation. I also feel that I like people a lot more and I'm more compassionate. I'm also standing up for myself in a positive way but feeling understanding of other people.
I had some anxiety early this week but it's clearing now. Part of the anxiety probably came from worrying about a family member who had the results of CT scan recently. The results were good but up until the time of the results we all worried quite a bit. I tend to be quite strong up until the time the results come in and I felt euphoric when we had the good news. However a week later I felt a real mess as all these toxic emotions came to the surface. This has often being the pattern when I'm worried about someone. I tend to be strong for them but once we get good news I feel good but then let everything go. It's like all the tension and worry that built up over a month or couple weeks comes spilling out in weird and sometimes scary ways.
However I feel much better now. I no longer see anxiety as a problem, just a sign that I need to take care of myself. I'm feeling much kinder and more compassionate towards myself.
I spent a month on Natural Song and Lyrics Writing and it definitely did a lot of positive things. I got a big royalty payment in the middle of April which helped pay of some of my debt, also a lot of the music I wrote in the last month has being very successful and the directors I worked with were very happy with the results.
I have now started Alpha Male 5.0 and despite only been a week I am loving it so far. Today I feel really strong and also a genuine sense of self appreciation. I also feel that I like people a lot more and I'm more compassionate. I'm also standing up for myself in a positive way but feeling understanding of other people.
I had some anxiety early this week but it's clearing now. Part of the anxiety probably came from worrying about a family member who had the results of CT scan recently. The results were good but up until the time of the results we all worried quite a bit. I tend to be quite strong up until the time the results come in and I felt euphoric when we had the good news. However a week later I felt a real mess as all these toxic emotions came to the surface. This has often being the pattern when I'm worried about someone. I tend to be strong for them but once we get good news I feel good but then let everything go. It's like all the tension and worry that built up over a month or couple weeks comes spilling out in weird and sometimes scary ways.
However I feel much better now. I no longer see anxiety as a problem, just a sign that I need to take care of myself. I'm feeling much kinder and more compassionate towards myself.
