02-19-2019, 06:07 AM
I notice that I get really angry when around my parents. Like everything they do is making me angry. And I thought about it, is it me, or is it actually something that they do or some energy they project that make me angry? I know that my mother is a egoistical bitch who blame everyone around her, and that is the energy that I think make me angry. She is trying to put a blame on me for not taking responsibility in the home, I do what I can and I try to pull my own weight, which is about what I can do at the moment. But she is bitching all the freaking time, she is NEVER satisfied with anything, it's always some kind of f*cking problem, and I am so sick of that way of living your life and making the lives of everyone else around you miserable.
When I was a small kid we installed a RCD at our house because I was biting the wiring all the time but the electrician messed up with the wiring and our house was caught on fire. When telling this story she is implying that it was my fault that the fire started, when in the case it was the misstake from the electrician. That way of telling the story tells all about her. She is a freaking motherf*cking discusting b*tch who I wouldn't drop a tear if she got hit by a train. It just make me SO F*CKING ANGRY. BLUH. F*cking bitch go and die somewhere would you?
And this f*cking way of living her life and blaming everyone around her and blaming me foremost for everything, rubbs of on my dad I believe, as he don't have the balls to stand up to her, really, but let her go with her BS explanaitions of everything. And he somehow around her falls in the pitfall of blaming me for stuff that I shouldn't be blamed for. He is a really nice guy and I love my father, but she brings bad influence upon him and he doesn't really use his own thinking from time to time but falls into her logic because of her manipulative ways with fear and other toxic emotions. So F*CK HER all the way, I will become totally independent of that raging f*cking bitch one day and I will distance myself from her as much as I can, and I am so freaking much look forward to that day, to the freedom of being able to tell her to go f*ck herself without needing to take the consequenses from it, but right now I am living at home and can't really take those consequenses. But one day, my ladies and gentlemen, that woman will hear the words that have gone way to long unspoken and then I will be free from her f*cking terror and live my life freely and happily without having to go around catering a grown womens emotional needs.
Now it's time to go to the gym and hit the shit out of a punching bag to be able to deal with this day.
When I was a small kid we installed a RCD at our house because I was biting the wiring all the time but the electrician messed up with the wiring and our house was caught on fire. When telling this story she is implying that it was my fault that the fire started, when in the case it was the misstake from the electrician. That way of telling the story tells all about her. She is a freaking motherf*cking discusting b*tch who I wouldn't drop a tear if she got hit by a train. It just make me SO F*CKING ANGRY. BLUH. F*cking bitch go and die somewhere would you?
And this f*cking way of living her life and blaming everyone around her and blaming me foremost for everything, rubbs of on my dad I believe, as he don't have the balls to stand up to her, really, but let her go with her BS explanaitions of everything. And he somehow around her falls in the pitfall of blaming me for stuff that I shouldn't be blamed for. He is a really nice guy and I love my father, but she brings bad influence upon him and he doesn't really use his own thinking from time to time but falls into her logic because of her manipulative ways with fear and other toxic emotions. So F*CK HER all the way, I will become totally independent of that raging f*cking bitch one day and I will distance myself from her as much as I can, and I am so freaking much look forward to that day, to the freedom of being able to tell her to go f*ck herself without needing to take the consequenses from it, but right now I am living at home and can't really take those consequenses. But one day, my ladies and gentlemen, that woman will hear the words that have gone way to long unspoken and then I will be free from her f*cking terror and live my life freely and happily without having to go around catering a grown womens emotional needs.
Now it's time to go to the gym and hit the shit out of a punching bag to be able to deal with this day.
