Next week would be 10 months of running E2. I have now decided to take a break just coming short of that milestone, to clear out for E3 which I hope to be released in a couple of weeks. I will probably write a testimonial on E2 later on when I have gotten things in perspective, but right now I can at least say that 10 months ago I was in a horrible situation, life was just painful, almost to painful to bear. I had problems being around people just taking the bus, don't knowing what to do with myself, social situations was almost impossible even though I pushed myself to them, I was constantly drained of energy, constantly worrying about the future and almost constantly having panic attacks - that was more a default than just being separate incidents. To sum up, my situation was horrible. 10 months later I am much more relaxed, can sleep alright, I'm able to use my mind to other things just than to tackle the constant worry coming from it, I can actually feel pretty good from time to time, I'm organizing get togethers with old and new friends, I think less of my ex girlfriend(s) and I am feeling more alright with being alone, I look forward to doing stuff rather than just having to force myself to do them. My meditation practise is steadily becoming better and better. I am in pretty good physical shape. E2 have helped much, most with being a refuge in finding relaxation even in the most stormy waters I have been through, and also helping to clear out blockages inside, tension in my body. And probably in helping me finding hope in the darkest moments and a bit of positivity.
Some things I hope to achieve during the coming 2019 with the help of E3 and the other tools I am using to improve my life:
Some things I hope to achieve during the coming 2019 with the help of E3 and the other tools I am using to improve my life:
- Becoming more grounded, and have more defined boundaries between myself and others
- Having a clear direction of what I want to do
- Have more proactivity towards doing what I want to do
- Have more close friendships
- Be less affected by other peoples energies and what they think
- Becoming more confident and relaxed in social situations
- Pursuing my passion in music
- Being able to handle work in a balanced way and enjoying it
- Pursuing some kind of side-business
