02-06-2019, 11:04 AM
(02-06-2019, 10:08 AM)RTBoss Wrote: After last post, I collected myself, and apologized to my wife. I tried to get her to see how she hasn't done anything wrong, that I'm just so stressed that my tolerance for anything beyond silence and being alone is low. I'm not sure if it makes a difference to know, but my MBTI type I've tested as time-and-again is INFJ. INFJ's tend to only regenerate through isolation - lots of "me" time - or in the company of close friends who won't/don't judge and can let them be who they are, totally and completely. That's my understanding, and that's me. Problem is, with a wife and kids, I'm never really alone, and I rarely get time with my close friends. The closest I have is the guy I'm going to see tomorrow through Monday, so hopefully that will help.
Anyway, she (my wife) takes everything I do very personally. I told reiterated that my shitty attitude isn't her - it's literally just me - and that it hurts me to hurt the people I love, but especially when I am having an extremely hard time controlling myself, it makes me feel pretty helpless. But, I'm trying. And to try better today, I went out and got my hair cut, then went to the gym to sweat the irritation out of me. It helped. I feel better. I'm on good terms again, so I'm going to do my best to keep it that way.
Good on you for doing this! Far too many people these days are willing to blame others for their emotions and actions. Way to man up and take responsibility for yourself!
