Swapped back to US last night (needed to hear during the 1st two loops), cozy phones sleep phones, 6 clicks volume.
The irritability continues. I have been giving my kids tablets (w/ educational videos and apps), then burying myself in TV or laptop so I don't have to talk or interact, b/c I have very little ability to control myself atm. Everything grates on my nerves. I've bitten my wife's head off twice already this morning. She told me, "You're nice to me for two weeks, and now you're like this. Just when I think you actually like me again, you rip it away, and it hurts worse than before." Great. And then I blame the winter for my mood. So I give my empty apology, and keep to myself again, afraid to speak and make everything worse.
I'm taking a road trip, starting tomorrow, to see my best friend from high school and his family, and I can't even get excited about it. I'm just stressed about packing and the long drive. I'm taking the whole family, so that doesn't help.
I am going to literally focus all of my energy on breathing, remaining calm, and being more kind and patient today. 'Bout all I can do.
The irritability continues. I have been giving my kids tablets (w/ educational videos and apps), then burying myself in TV or laptop so I don't have to talk or interact, b/c I have very little ability to control myself atm. Everything grates on my nerves. I've bitten my wife's head off twice already this morning. She told me, "You're nice to me for two weeks, and now you're like this. Just when I think you actually like me again, you rip it away, and it hurts worse than before." Great. And then I blame the winter for my mood. So I give my empty apology, and keep to myself again, afraid to speak and make everything worse.
I'm taking a road trip, starting tomorrow, to see my best friend from high school and his family, and I can't even get excited about it. I'm just stressed about packing and the long drive. I'm taking the whole family, so that doesn't help.
I am going to literally focus all of my energy on breathing, remaining calm, and being more kind and patient today. 'Bout all I can do.
