02-03-2019, 11:35 PM
(02-02-2019, 03:55 AM)Greenduck Wrote: Are you doing any other work on yourself other than subliminals?
Not currently. I'm realizing why I didn't respond immediately when I read this days ago. It's a fear of change, trying hard to not change. And even some long time good habits I'm actually questioning my motives for.
One thing I'm questioning are my motives recently for wanting to go to 12 step meetings. Old desires I relied upon were people liking me since I've not liked myself. I also habitually put up walls and fronts due to fears and imaginations of being rejected. Life isn't bad at all on E2, so I've not been forcing anything recently. For me, forcing things is coupled with self hate. That's not what I want, so I'm respecting my own desires presently.
I want to be FREE!
