I saw an interesting Family Guy episode where Stewie goes to a phychiatrist and talks about his problems (Which he don't want to admit having in the beginning) - like that he cares much about what other people think about him. After a while he have a meltdown, get to sing a song and become appreciated and then he start to speak with his real voice (not brittish but maerican) and talk about that he has been hiding his true self all the time, because he was afraid of being vulnerable. But when the doctor says "now you can finally be as everone else" something snaps in him and he reverts back to his old self (and later on kills the dr in classic Stewie way without showing any signs of empathy saying "this isn't something new to me"... lol)
Why I found it interesting was because clearly Stewie is a narcissist, who can't accept being as everone else, who is sees as of lower value than himself. And something with this was relatable for me, my mom is a full-point narcissist, and can never be vulnerable but always hide behind a facade. It would be weird if this haven't had effects on me, and as I think about it I have always felt superior in some kind of way, and at the same time as I have been gone around life hiding my true self. Being as everone else have always had negative connotations, but I start to realize that this is what I want. I want to feel like everone else - by being myself.
E2 is really poking at some deep things now, and the fear and stress that have been fueling the narcissistic comping mechanisms and the fear of showing my "true self" (lol i wrote that in quotation, don't know why) but it is really my true self, is being brought to surface, not painfully, but just consciously. I think I will overcome this and finally be able to be myself regardless of what other people think of me and overcome this deep fear I have been carrying about being judged.
Why I found it interesting was because clearly Stewie is a narcissist, who can't accept being as everone else, who is sees as of lower value than himself. And something with this was relatable for me, my mom is a full-point narcissist, and can never be vulnerable but always hide behind a facade. It would be weird if this haven't had effects on me, and as I think about it I have always felt superior in some kind of way, and at the same time as I have been gone around life hiding my true self. Being as everone else have always had negative connotations, but I start to realize that this is what I want. I want to feel like everone else - by being myself.
E2 is really poking at some deep things now, and the fear and stress that have been fueling the narcissistic comping mechanisms and the fear of showing my "true self" (lol i wrote that in quotation, don't know why) but it is really my true self, is being brought to surface, not painfully, but just consciously. I think I will overcome this and finally be able to be myself regardless of what other people think of me and overcome this deep fear I have been carrying about being judged.
