A couple of years ago I tried running AM6 for 3 months. But failed miserably. I pushed and pushed, but in the wrong way. I wasn't able to absorb it, it was just stressing me, and I have really had a hard time to understand why it played out that way. But I am starting to see that I was in a really bad place, and sure that AM includes emotional healing, but it is also a program that will push your limits. And if you don't are stable in yourself, and are in a place of dissociation, suffering from PTSD from bad trips on cannabis and are facing an stress-related burn-out as I was, this is not a good idea.
As I said AM6 just did things worse for me. I got stressed out because I was so far away from the goal that the program presented to me, or made myself present to myself, and because I was pretty much delusional, the goal that I presented to myself of what an alpha male is, was just unrealistic. I wanted to be everything in the same time, but didn't had the means to achieve it, and no plan for how it should be done. So I basically just walked around thinking about how I wanted to be, but didn't take any steps toward it (because my body was so broken that I couldn't muster up the energy to make it) until everything broke down. I was recommended by people on the forum to "push trough it", and by all means this was most likely done by good heart, but they couldn't realise in what bad place I was. This pushed me to continue and deplete myself of my energy even more, and become even more discouraged. It was like putting a VW Golf in a formula 1 race and telling him that this is what he should strive for. But that can't be done if the Golf is running on fumes and with a flat tire. Not a perfect analogy but maybe you get the point.
The reason behind it was that I think that I was so stuck in fear because of the PTSD that the program tried to overcome it but I because of the circumstances stonewalled it and things just got worse. And because of the PTSD I couldn't absorb the program, let the needed emotions come up, be released and become stronger, but just got "locked down" as of a already ongoing defence mechanism.
My hope is to run AM6 in the future. Right now I have a bit of a skewed perception of the program and the way I reacted on it, but I am trying to revaluate this by reading other people stories.
As I said AM6 just did things worse for me. I got stressed out because I was so far away from the goal that the program presented to me, or made myself present to myself, and because I was pretty much delusional, the goal that I presented to myself of what an alpha male is, was just unrealistic. I wanted to be everything in the same time, but didn't had the means to achieve it, and no plan for how it should be done. So I basically just walked around thinking about how I wanted to be, but didn't take any steps toward it (because my body was so broken that I couldn't muster up the energy to make it) until everything broke down. I was recommended by people on the forum to "push trough it", and by all means this was most likely done by good heart, but they couldn't realise in what bad place I was. This pushed me to continue and deplete myself of my energy even more, and become even more discouraged. It was like putting a VW Golf in a formula 1 race and telling him that this is what he should strive for. But that can't be done if the Golf is running on fumes and with a flat tire. Not a perfect analogy but maybe you get the point.
The reason behind it was that I think that I was so stuck in fear because of the PTSD that the program tried to overcome it but I because of the circumstances stonewalled it and things just got worse. And because of the PTSD I couldn't absorb the program, let the needed emotions come up, be released and become stronger, but just got "locked down" as of a already ongoing defence mechanism.
My hope is to run AM6 in the future. Right now I have a bit of a skewed perception of the program and the way I reacted on it, but I am trying to revaluate this by reading other people stories.
