I noticed something yesterday, I looked at the avatar of a girl I met a while ago and I noticed that I saw her differently. Instead of seeing her face expression as smug, as someone who think they are better than others, I saw a sweet girl. I think that a deep part of me is being healed, a part that have been hurt and looked on the world in a cynical way and that I have carried for so long that I have even not been reflecting consciously on how it affected my perception of other people, and the world in general I guess. I wasn't very popular among the girls as I was younger, and I have been able to take in that now, previously I didn't even want to think about it, because those memories was just to painful. I didn't felt wanted, I felt like an outsider. I was a sensitive kid, and I didn't really know how to talk to girls back then and therefore didn't get my interest reciprocated and I think that it fostered a bitterness toward others, that have just stayed with me. Anyway, that isn't the most important thing. The important thing is to heal the part of me that have been hurt for along time, and keep that part healed. Realize that my needs are just fine, and that I can safely express them (I think that is the core issue at least).
I start to understand what Buddha talked about when saying that "We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world." I didn't even know that I could ever see the world differently than I have been doing for all these years, even if this is just a small thing that just have started to change, I know this will bear more fruit.
While reading the DMSI reviews I feel a bit of FOMO, so I'll put down some goals I want to achieve before using any attraction subliminal for my own sake
It's really most about working on myself and not being so much invested in getting outside company before those things are in place, because I need to have that stability in my own life before being prepared to share myself to someone else. Previously I have mostly been trying to get someone to be with to not feel lonely.
I have a plan, which is E2 until E3 comes out, E3 for 3-6 months and then ASC 6G (which hopefully are out by then) for 6-12 months. This is my original plan that I will try to stick to, as I believe that doing the ground work that those subliminals will push me to do is needed for me to reach maturity and emotional well-being in myself, and will be a good preparation for running AM, which is a plan I look towards in the long term.
I start to understand what Buddha talked about when saying that "We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make the world." I didn't even know that I could ever see the world differently than I have been doing for all these years, even if this is just a small thing that just have started to change, I know this will bear more fruit.
While reading the DMSI reviews I feel a bit of FOMO, so I'll put down some goals I want to achieve before using any attraction subliminal for my own sake
- Being able to set boundaries to other people, not being so invested in what they think, want or do.
- Started to work, being able to handle work and handling the stress related to work in a healthy, balanced way
- Have my finances in place, with a solid savings account and investing it diligently
- Have a good relationship with my parents
- Be able to enjoy my own company and not need to be around other people to feel good
- Enjoy pursuing my hobbies, one being playing the piano, one being to cook, one being reading books
- Have a solid circle of friends who I enjoy being with
- Feel good about myself with good self.esteem, not comparing myself to others
- Feel that I know my priorities and life and what I want, and not just go after what other people want in their lives
It's really most about working on myself and not being so much invested in getting outside company before those things are in place, because I need to have that stability in my own life before being prepared to share myself to someone else. Previously I have mostly been trying to get someone to be with to not feel lonely.
I have a plan, which is E2 until E3 comes out, E3 for 3-6 months and then ASC 6G (which hopefully are out by then) for 6-12 months. This is my original plan that I will try to stick to, as I believe that doing the ground work that those subliminals will push me to do is needed for me to reach maturity and emotional well-being in myself, and will be a good preparation for running AM, which is a plan I look towards in the long term.
