Reality can get bent - DMSI 3.3.1-D Adventures and Musings (USLMaxx Interlude Mode)

[Have at ye]

Interestingly, upon dealing with that egotic thing (still somewhat in the process, but there's definite progress) it might outwardly appear as if I had regressed regarding the program's overall goals. Thing is, though, that I actually hadn't - it's just that, finally, the things that a part of my ego was protecting (for "reasons", apparently, long story. Fear, of course, but rationally making little sense causation-wise, but emotionally/developmentally - the cause, methinks) from being touched upon are now in the "accepted, work on this" stage once more, but now the "work on this" part does not spring from some sort of angry drive/insecurity whatever, but from an actual decision to work on this stuff. Kinda difficult to explain, really, but feels like a radical difference in mindsets.

The main difference seems to be that I do not have spurts of super-crazy motivation which would peter out sooner or later, but the drive is more of a calm-minded constant with a certainty that "yeah, I'm going to get there".

Still on break, awaiting 3.3.1D's release. Anyroad, I have a plan for the nearest future, sub-wise - I think I'll be doing 3-6 months of DMSI, then 3-6 months of the planned USLMaxx with updated FRM, and then alternate between these two. Further on, I may try the planned LTU, and by then 6G should be in full swing, so I'll be probably using new interesting releases should any catch my eye.