Shannon's Journal Discussion Volume 3

[Shannon]

@Shannon

I have some questions, before I start I was running US/LM and switched to 3.3 when it came out so the thing I had with the girl who I thought could be a LTR turns out she is just 'assessing her options' that ended and we parted ways, not going to lie I was somewhat disappointed as I lost time and energy while she was ***** other guys, yes she indirectly told me and I connected dots, now she was serious but did a complete 180, now for some reason I feel it was going well until I switched to DMSI, not to discredit dmsi as it gave me an experience and or helped me get past some anxiety and blocks that I've been having, now my dilemma is do I carry on.

I just know my mind hates it, I'm not getting IOIs nothing, this girl I found on US/LM I had to go out of my way or it wouldn't have happened, ngl I got more from women on the 4g AOS in regards to IOIs and all the attention, yes I am resisting and I'm still full of fear and have so many insecurities which I am working on, makes me think I have been on the AOSI/DMSI train for soo long I would have gotten so much more out of AM6 which I loved and executed. DMSI has put me off LTRs or even a potential she could be the one for me, I don't want it anymore, I've been pretty hurt but the truths and realisations I've had have put me past the pain and I see it for what it is.

I'm not making progress with women like I want or expect, not got anything to show for since I jumped on the DMSI train now I take responsibility as a 'tester', I think this is it for me, I may be back, I will use other subs as I execute them but this one, I just don't know what's going on anymore, never thought it'd be this hard, if only I could beat my anxiety fears and being in my head so much that I'd go out there and get what I want rather than be the way I am.

I recall pointing out to you (I think it was you, at least) that you might not want to run DMSI if you think she might be "the one". That said, you now see that she wasn't "the one", so that point is moot.

You and I both know that the reason you're fighting DMSI is because the FRM is doing what it's supposed to do, and that scares the hell out of you. FRM 4.4 should take care of that.

But think about this. You are doing EXACTLY what I predicted people would do when we got close to finished. I said that people would either execute or run away, and you're trying to run away. How does running away solve your problem or mine? You are showing me what FRM needs to have done to improve it. Now I am almost ready to release DMSI 3.3.1-D and you want to run away. That doesn't help either of us, because then you don't benefit from the advancements to FRM and I don't learn how much progress I have made to making it what it is supposed to be.

The closer we get to the solution, the more people are going to want to escape into self deception, demotivation, stopping the program, ANYTHING to not have to keep going. And then one of these versions is going to be feature complete, and it will finally break through. We can't be very far away now, given how much people are resisting and trying to run away. I have been predicting this for a long time. It does nobody any good if you all just run away when things get real.

The fact is, FRM is trying to move you past having those fears, but 4.1 wasn't feature complete. It needed some things that allowed people to have the experience you had. That's what I have been working on. It is still working, though, or there would be no need nor any desire to stop, self deceive, escape.

If you want results, then when DMSI 3.3.1-D comes out, use it. Show me what the difference between FRM 4.1 and 4.4 is. Help us make this thing feature complete so we can stop testing and start getting to the 6G good stuff. I am so sick and tired of rebuilding and rebuilding DMSI. Let's finish it.