01-14-2019, 07:52 PM
Day 7
Second day of my first break.
My main date came over. Things have been rocky between us for the past two weeks or so. By rocky I don't mean we're fighting, but the attraction has just been waning. We've been together for over ten months now. I was going to see whether I want to continue staying with her today. I was prepared for an argument.
However when she came over, it's like the negative tension of the past two weeks never happened. Things were good as usual and there was a lot of attraction between us. We cooked some steaks and then had fun after. I bought a new toy, a pair of handcuffs. She was game to try it and even tried it on me as well. Didn't really enjoy that one, but I loved it when I used it on her. Sex was good and intense. At the end of the day I sent her back home which I never do. She was so touched it was funny.
Somehow the interaction with her today felt more natural than usual when I was on MLS and wearing various pheromones. I first met her on DMSI 3.2 and today felt like the first few months of dating again.
Day 8
Back on 5 loops of ultrasonic at night.
Had two dates today. One is early evening with an art student. She turned out to be uglier than her photo and I was honestly turned off. I found it really hard to be interested in what she was saying when I wasn't attracted to her. On top of that, she was a real degenerate as most art students are. Plus, she turned out to be asexual as well. I felt such anger at her and I had to stop myself from saying mean things. Just left after an hour.
After that fiasco I was really hoping that the next date would be more attractive. Thankfully she was! 18-year-old Indian, 178cm tall (5'10"), slim with sharp features, speaks with an American accent. Quite an exotic creature. I brought her for drinks. Easy conversation. I was amusing myself with her youth. She was clearly attracted to me, saying stuff like "you're obviously a good looking dude, I bet you can get any girl, so why are you on tinder?" She had some self esteem issues, as most attractive girls do, which I poked fun at. She was very physically comfortable. I usually don't physically escalate anymore, but tonight I wanted to and she was game. She got so turned on when I started touching and kissing her. I pulled her to a nearby hotel with no resistance.
However in the hotel she put up a heavy LMR. She doesn't do it on the first date, it's not like her etc etc. I was a little turned off and just answered her lazily and escalated a little. This went on for a good half an hour. I was just about to lose my patience and leave when she came around. She turned off the lights and we got it on. By this time I wasn't so horny anymore. She was also doing it in a reserved and guilty manner so the sex, even though it was intense, wasn't so satisfying. Certainly a far cry from the one I had last week with the dancer chick. She was aware of it and apologized to me about her behavior. I'm not sure if I want to see her again. She's quite attractive physically but that experience was quite a turn off.
Again I observe on DMSI that the way I think becomes "I hope I'm happy with the girl" rather than "I hope she's happy with me". It feels very natural, like as if I've been this way all along.
Second day of my first break.
My main date came over. Things have been rocky between us for the past two weeks or so. By rocky I don't mean we're fighting, but the attraction has just been waning. We've been together for over ten months now. I was going to see whether I want to continue staying with her today. I was prepared for an argument.
However when she came over, it's like the negative tension of the past two weeks never happened. Things were good as usual and there was a lot of attraction between us. We cooked some steaks and then had fun after. I bought a new toy, a pair of handcuffs. She was game to try it and even tried it on me as well. Didn't really enjoy that one, but I loved it when I used it on her. Sex was good and intense. At the end of the day I sent her back home which I never do. She was so touched it was funny.
Somehow the interaction with her today felt more natural than usual when I was on MLS and wearing various pheromones. I first met her on DMSI 3.2 and today felt like the first few months of dating again.
Day 8
Back on 5 loops of ultrasonic at night.
Had two dates today. One is early evening with an art student. She turned out to be uglier than her photo and I was honestly turned off. I found it really hard to be interested in what she was saying when I wasn't attracted to her. On top of that, she was a real degenerate as most art students are. Plus, she turned out to be asexual as well. I felt such anger at her and I had to stop myself from saying mean things. Just left after an hour.
After that fiasco I was really hoping that the next date would be more attractive. Thankfully she was! 18-year-old Indian, 178cm tall (5'10"), slim with sharp features, speaks with an American accent. Quite an exotic creature. I brought her for drinks. Easy conversation. I was amusing myself with her youth. She was clearly attracted to me, saying stuff like "you're obviously a good looking dude, I bet you can get any girl, so why are you on tinder?" She had some self esteem issues, as most attractive girls do, which I poked fun at. She was very physically comfortable. I usually don't physically escalate anymore, but tonight I wanted to and she was game. She got so turned on when I started touching and kissing her. I pulled her to a nearby hotel with no resistance.
However in the hotel she put up a heavy LMR. She doesn't do it on the first date, it's not like her etc etc. I was a little turned off and just answered her lazily and escalated a little. This went on for a good half an hour. I was just about to lose my patience and leave when she came around. She turned off the lights and we got it on. By this time I wasn't so horny anymore. She was also doing it in a reserved and guilty manner so the sex, even though it was intense, wasn't so satisfying. Certainly a far cry from the one I had last week with the dancer chick. She was aware of it and apologized to me about her behavior. I'm not sure if I want to see her again. She's quite attractive physically but that experience was quite a turn off.
Again I observe on DMSI that the way I think becomes "I hope I'm happy with the girl" rather than "I hope she's happy with me". It feels very natural, like as if I've been this way all along.
