Some observations
- Sometimes I feel like I am the only one who is "awake" and that other people are just going through their day in some kind of dreaming state. I can't really put my finger on it, but it's how it feels
- I met a friend and his old GF and I felt I got an easy and authentic connection with her. It felt like it use to, I have always had a easy time connecting with girls, it feels like girls sometimes are more honest then guys I know, like they cut through all the bullshit and just are themselves. My guy-friends always put on some kind of charade, I guess it's fear related.
- I'm tired of one of my guy friens, it feels like he always want something from me, he feels so damn insecure and needy. It's taxating. And when I don't give him validation he just gets even more insecure. Don't know what it's about.
- When I said thanks to the girl waiter at restaurant it just felt very real again, like we struck a connection. I have a hard time to explain it, but it feels like I can reach out to people in an authentic manner. More real and honest.
- I have lots of anger that I can release in my muay thai practise, which feels like something I need to do to become more grounded and relaxed. Still some tension in my body, even though that it is decreasing. Sleep is better and I feel more relaxed when waking up, no the anxious feeling I previously had.
