01-02-2019, 03:40 PM
@SaltyMeatballs
Shannon makes a good suggestion. Read the journals to get a more rounded perspective on what a particular sub can do (different people get different kinds of results).
@Greenduck
I probably shouldn’t use stereotypical labels, but the typical person considers me to be a nerd, etc.
Nerd = my interests are video games, sci-fi, cartoons, anime, comic books, superheroes, role playing, anthropomorphic characters, the undead, reading.
The typical / average person considers people with those interests to be a huge nerd. And I’m okay with being labelled as such.
Socially awkward = I usually say something that creeps people out (even when I think everything is non-creepy). People will regularly suddenly cross their arms, or walk away, or make excuses to avoid talking to me, or tell me bluntly that I said something ‘inappropriate’, etc. And I never know what to say. Whenever I think something is appropriate and comforting, it generally isn’t. People often react in ways that confuse me, or that are completely different from the way I imagine them reacting in situations. Etc.
Weird = I am different from the average / typical person. Didn’t say my first word until 3.5 yo, started my education in ‘special school’ (before being moved to ‘mainstream’), no sexual experience at 31yo, non-drinker / avoid alcohol (this alone gets me plenty of ‘weird’ labels), prefers ‘alternative’ music, some interests that are considered ‘weird’ by others, etc.
When I’m enjoying my interests / hobbies I’m not really thinking that I’m a nerd. It’s only within social contexts that labels come up. People literally say that I’m nerdy, awkward, weird, etc. (so I just adopted the same labels that they use).
LTU 5G helped with ‘pride’ (nerd pride!) and self-acceptance. I really like who I am. Some people tell me that I need to become more ‘normal’, and I think ‘no f*cking way do I want to be ‘normal’. I just want to be me’.
I am working on developing a self-image as a powerful, unique, awesome individual person.
Shannon makes a good suggestion. Read the journals to get a more rounded perspective on what a particular sub can do (different people get different kinds of results).
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I probably shouldn’t use stereotypical labels, but the typical person considers me to be a nerd, etc.
Nerd = my interests are video games, sci-fi, cartoons, anime, comic books, superheroes, role playing, anthropomorphic characters, the undead, reading.
The typical / average person considers people with those interests to be a huge nerd. And I’m okay with being labelled as such.
Socially awkward = I usually say something that creeps people out (even when I think everything is non-creepy). People will regularly suddenly cross their arms, or walk away, or make excuses to avoid talking to me, or tell me bluntly that I said something ‘inappropriate’, etc. And I never know what to say. Whenever I think something is appropriate and comforting, it generally isn’t. People often react in ways that confuse me, or that are completely different from the way I imagine them reacting in situations. Etc.
Weird = I am different from the average / typical person. Didn’t say my first word until 3.5 yo, started my education in ‘special school’ (before being moved to ‘mainstream’), no sexual experience at 31yo, non-drinker / avoid alcohol (this alone gets me plenty of ‘weird’ labels), prefers ‘alternative’ music, some interests that are considered ‘weird’ by others, etc.
When I’m enjoying my interests / hobbies I’m not really thinking that I’m a nerd. It’s only within social contexts that labels come up. People literally say that I’m nerdy, awkward, weird, etc. (so I just adopted the same labels that they use).
LTU 5G helped with ‘pride’ (nerd pride!) and self-acceptance. I really like who I am. Some people tell me that I need to become more ‘normal’, and I think ‘no f*cking way do I want to be ‘normal’. I just want to be me’.
I am working on developing a self-image as a powerful, unique, awesome individual person.
