01-02-2019, 08:11 AM
The academic translation payments are being sorted out - I received 1/3rd of it, but it's due to some issues on the uni's end (they probably entered something incorrectly in the wire transfer order). So moar monies soon!
On the FRM front, yesternight, as I finished listening to my loops, I got another dream regarding the Big One (it's this fear that's been popping up ever since ver. 3.1, very apparent on ver 3.2, now it's getting sorted out) and the dream would indicate progress. I did wake up with a start at its end, when it hit something that apparently scares the crap out of me, but I'm pleased to report that despite that I was feeling calm on the conscious level (very little in the way of experiencing actual fear, maybe apart from a slightly faster heartbeat than normal).
A lot of insightful thoughts followed. Most of them connected to my self-esteem, which is what I guess that "narcissistic reaction", as I choose to call it, is/was trying to protect. Or the self-esteem thing was trying to hide a certain aspect of "the Big One" from me, I can't rightly tell. Both, probably!
On the general DMSI front, things are continuing the way I reported several days back. So it's working, is getting progressively stronger, and I think I just gotta keep at it.
On the FRM front, yesternight, as I finished listening to my loops, I got another dream regarding the Big One (it's this fear that's been popping up ever since ver. 3.1, very apparent on ver 3.2, now it's getting sorted out) and the dream would indicate progress. I did wake up with a start at its end, when it hit something that apparently scares the crap out of me, but I'm pleased to report that despite that I was feeling calm on the conscious level (very little in the way of experiencing actual fear, maybe apart from a slightly faster heartbeat than normal).
A lot of insightful thoughts followed. Most of them connected to my self-esteem, which is what I guess that "narcissistic reaction", as I choose to call it, is/was trying to protect. Or the self-esteem thing was trying to hide a certain aspect of "the Big One" from me, I can't rightly tell. Both, probably!
On the general DMSI front, things are continuing the way I reported several days back. So it's working, is getting progressively stronger, and I think I just gotta keep at it.
"A man who is doing his True Will has the inertia of the Universe to assist him." - A. Crowley
