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[Greenduck]

Edit: 2015 - 2017 were when I did LTU 5G.



LTU 5G results... Off the the top of my head:

- Feeling excited for no particular reason.
- Flatmate seemed less annoying / more tolerable
- Most people seemed dead inside / noticeably dull
- Oddly specific fears, that had nothing to do with reality, seemed to no longer affect me (fear of urine in mailbox, for example).
- Driven to succeed, but not knowing what to do to succeed.
- More comfortable with me / myself (who is nerdy, socially awkward and weird).
- Anal sex now seems disgusting to me (used to love anal sex porn. Now I cringe).
- Watch less porn
- Was getting approached by old men (this seems to have died down now - I’m a guy, so WTF!)
- People (especially women) my age, and younger, are repelled by me / avoid me / ignore me
- Open to new possibilities / paradigms
- Really like myself
- Less pain relating to rejection
- Cool with being unpopular / socially awkward
- The massive amount of damage that reading PUA has done to me is much more obvious
- Would rather be myself, than someone else
- Extra gratitude for little things
- Feeling good
- Lost some close friends
- More feminine
- Some people that used to like me, now avoid me / ignore me
- Some people that used to avoid me / ignore me, now like me
- Feel like I have rare value to offer people (although only some people would see any value in me. Most don’t and I am cool with that).
- Enjoy nature more


One big thing I should emphasise is that you will become non-compatiable with most people (whose toxicity / BS / manipulation games become more obvious, and frustrating).

LTU 5G is quite subtle, and feels like nothing is happening for ages, until you realise that something has changed.


It’s been over a year since I finished up my last run of LTU 5G. Many things have noticeably faded, but I can still perceive them.

The main point that has stuck is that I love myself / love the nerdy, socially awkward person that I am, and can admit it openly. My personality is naturally like Tina Belcher from Bobs Burgers.

The self-esteem, self-love, etc. seems to have been the most permanent thing.

I read your reply masterenki and while some of your changes seem good, in terms of accepting yourself, I got the feeling that you are stuck in a self image of looking at yourself as a "nerd" or whatever you want to call it, and thus not caring how other people find you, you are stuck in your own way of defining yourself. You don't really need to define yourself. You are just you (whatever you name is). Drop the negative formualtions and starting seeing the positive things from your own center, rather than resorting to empty labels.