01-02-2019, 02:04 AM
I don't know if it would help but I felt some release when on USLM when I realised there were things I was suppressing that I didn't want to accept, relating to death, status, the requirement to work and develop and the pain of growth/and humility in accepting where I had to start from. Then things started to move again - may not apply to you but see if it fits.
Your task is not to seek for Love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.