12-30-2018, 02:33 PM
Something is happening right now (I think it's a root chakra opening) that is felt very powerful within. I feel supercharged, almost to the point of being overwhelmed, like my body is generating all this kind of emotions that I haven't felt in a long time. Like I am at the point of bursting into laughter or starting to break down into crying at the same time. Like my love for life and curiosity for things, love for people, desire to express myself, to travel, feel, haha a lot of things at the same time. I am taking it slowly, my root meditation make it extra apparent.
At the gym today I felt a bodily power I don't think I have felt before. I usually go to the gym hitting a punching bag and doing som muay thai moves like kickes, knees and punches and today my kicks were just raw-powerful. I had so much real aggression that I could use, and it felt so damn releasing. I made a lot of noise and bodily noises while beating the shit out of the bag and there were two other people, one girl and one guy who were just beside my, but it didn't stop me (why should it?) doing what I needed to do. I felt like masculine power for a lack of a better word for it. Embodied power. This have been long awaited, I feel it that way. Like something inside of me is ready to wake up that haven't gotten the place that it should and now the momentum and movement for it is starting to become unstoppable. That is how it feels.
I also gave a friend sound relationship advise and he complimented me on how rational I can look at emotions and be able to access a situation and how much he appreciated talking to me about it. I'm really happy about it, as this have been one friend who have stayed with my during my whole depression and I am glad to be able to give something back to him as I really value our friendship and like him.
At the gym today I felt a bodily power I don't think I have felt before. I usually go to the gym hitting a punching bag and doing som muay thai moves like kickes, knees and punches and today my kicks were just raw-powerful. I had so much real aggression that I could use, and it felt so damn releasing. I made a lot of noise and bodily noises while beating the shit out of the bag and there were two other people, one girl and one guy who were just beside my, but it didn't stop me (why should it?) doing what I needed to do. I felt like masculine power for a lack of a better word for it. Embodied power. This have been long awaited, I feel it that way. Like something inside of me is ready to wake up that haven't gotten the place that it should and now the momentum and movement for it is starting to become unstoppable. That is how it feels.
I also gave a friend sound relationship advise and he complimented me on how rational I can look at emotions and be able to access a situation and how much he appreciated talking to me about it. I'm really happy about it, as this have been one friend who have stayed with my during my whole depression and I am glad to be able to give something back to him as I really value our friendship and like him.
